How we met (kit Connor x y/n)

Im sorry

(Self harm and talks about sucide)

Your pov
I woke up to some shuffling in the room I sat up and saw kit in the room "oh hey love" you yawn and look at him "hey, how long have I been asleep for" he smiled

"About an hour didn't want to wake you so I left you alone" you stood up and walked over to him he opened up his arms and pulled you into his lap hugging you "im sorry baby" you start to cry again well he rubs small circles on your back "I- I don't understand how it got out, I don't wanna be known as sucide girl I wanted to put that stuff in my past"

"I know love, I know we'll figure this out okay" you shake your head and look at him  "can we stay like this for a little while longer" he checked the clock "I have 30 minutes till my lunch is over" you shake your head "that works" he smiles you place your head back in the crook of his neck he kissed your head

30 minutes later

He sighs "baby I have to change and then go" you pull away "oh okay" he gave a sad look "how about tonight if your still up for a date let's stay at my house an have another movie night" you climb off him and shake your head "yeah sure, do you think Bubba will let me go home" kit sighed "you don't want me to go home alone eathier do you" he gulped in guilt "I'm sorry" you sigh and flop back down on the couch "it's fine I get it" you lay down "okay close your eyes please I have to change" you sigh and turn around digging your face into the corner of the couch after a couple of minutes you turned back around

"Okay bye baby I'll be back in a bit okay" you shake your head "okay bye" he walked over to you and kissed you he pulled away and smiled he turned around and walked back out of the dressing room you sigh and try to fall back asleep you look over at your bag and see your keys to your house you debate for a couple of minutes before you get up and walk to the bathroom grabbing a wet napkin than you walk back into the room

You walk over to your backpack and grab your keys you put them up to your arm and debate for a couple of seconds but than you remember the relief it gave you when you did it and you looked down and realized the key was already causing blood and scars you feel a tear run down your face thinking about the promise you made to joe but in that moment you were in relief and didn't want to think about after a couple of cuts you grabbed the wet palate towel and place it on the cuts drying up the blood

3 hours later

You look over at the door hearing it open and you see kit walk in he smiles "we can head out now" you smile "yeah okay" he walked over to you pulling you into a hug " I need to change out of this school uniform it's uncomfortable" you smile "okay I'll see you outside I'm gonna let joe know we're hanging out this afternoon" he smiled "okay go ahead"

Kits pov

I sighed after realizing as soon I walked in she tried to pull the sleeve down lower I quickly changed and than walk over to the trash can looking for any sign of blood or something I didn't see anything so I went over to the couch and on the couch I saw a small blood stain next to where she was sitting I sighed "damn it I knew I shouldn't have left her" I felt my stomach start to turn feeling guilt I quickly threw on my hoodie and a fake smile I walked out to the set " make sure you take care of her tonight please" joe said walking past I fake smiled
"always I mean she is your sister and my friend would never let her get hurt" he smiled "thanks kit I'll see you tomorrow" he smiled and walked  off I walked over to y/n

"Ready let's go on this date so I can officially make you my girlfriend" she smiled "sounds amazing" I opens up the door for her we both climbed in and drove back to my house she was quit most the time I took a quick look at her backpack I saw her key and noticed a little bit of blood in it I slightly sighed "you okay" I smiled "yeah I'm fine just exited" I placed my hand on top of hers

Once we got back to my house I told her I'd meet her upstairs I was gonna make popcorn she walked upstairs and into her room "okay how am I gonna bring this up tonight" I said throwing the popular kinda harshly into the microwave I started to come up with a plan and after the popcorn beeped I poured it into a bowl put on my smile and walked upstairs 

She was already laying down in the bed looking threw movies I smiled couase she had her tounge out from so much concentration "so did you find one" she jumped "oh my god you scared me" I smiled "that was my goal love" she rolled her eyes "yes I figured we could do pirates of the Caribbean" I smiled and pulled her over to me placing her into my lap "sure love we can watch that" she smiled

After a while I paused the movie she looked at me "what's up" I sighed "we need to talk" she gave me a worried look and she started putting pressure on her arm "don't worry I'm not going to end anything with you" I said slowly grabbing her arm and pulling it away from the cuts realving the pressure she looked at me starting to figure out what this is about "I saw the blood y/n" she looked at the ground I saw tears start to well in her eyes

"I'm sorry I-I just couldn't handle it and t-that helps I saw my keys and I just c-couldn't think of another realif I'm so so sorry" she grabbed her arm again putting pressure I grabbed her hands and placed them in mine "I'm not mad y/n I'm worried that's all" she shook her head "but I promised I wouldn't and I broke that promise and I'm just really sorry" I looked at her "I know you are did you atleast bandage them" she looked at the ground I stood up and walked into my bathroom I pulled out a bin with a bunch of stuff to bandage it

I walked back out "atleast let me help bandage them" she shook her head no "I don't want you to see them" I hugged her "please let me help I said we would go threw this together remember so please let me help" she pulled away and looked at me I carefully wiped away her tear "please just let me help" she slowly shook her head I grabbed her hand and brought her to the bathroom she hopped up in the counter

"Okay love is it both arms or just one" she looked at the ground and I heard a faint whisper "both" I shook my head I slowly grabbed her arm and started pulling the sleeve up I rolled it up and there were about 10 cuts  on each "I'm sorry" she said starting to cry I looked up at her and wiped her tears "it's okay, just try not to do it again" I reached into the bin and pulled out some disinfectant "this might hurt okay" she sighed

"I'm used to pain" I looked at her "baby" she looked back at the ground I slowly started to wipe away the dried blood she flinched a couple of times "okay now I'm gonna wrap them with some bandage wrap" she shook her head tears still running down her face I wrapped up the cut with some bandage and than I looked at her when I finished "all done love" she shook her head tears still slightly falling "come here" I grabbed her pulling her into another hug she started full on crying soaking my shirt after a little while she stopped

"Now what do you say we go ahead and finish our date" she shook her head "this wasn't a very good date" I sighed "I know I just had to bring it up I promise I'll make it up to you after your my girlfriend" she smiled and cuddled up to me on the bed we started the movie after a little while she fell asleep I decided to text joe and let him know she's fell aslee and is staying here for the night