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taeil

by: tol_siron
language: english
wc: 8359

Summary:

Recently, Taeil has been fantasizing about it. Dreaming about it sometimes, waking up half hard and with a moan on the tip of his tongue, rutting against the bed.

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Taeil is nervous.

It's an oddity for him nowadays, even though it was an every day occurrence in their debut days. Training and being on stage has made him more confident, made him worry less about how others perceive him and his actions. He takes things less seriously than he used to, and while he's not as free-spirited as some of the others, he knows that he's much more relaxed in a way he could never have been if he hadn't auditioned and been accepted into the company. The group too have helped him open up and be less afraid of sharing his feelings. Most of them are unashamed and unapologetic when it comes to being affectionate, and that helps.

He just never thought that he would become confident and shameless enough to admit his deepest desires and have them accepted and even made possible.

Johnny helps him open up. Of course he does. Ever since they met, most of Taeil's life has revolved around him. Johnny has become a pillar for Taeil to lean on. They were friends first, two complete opposites and Taeil never could have imagined them ending up where they are now. Johnny's confession had been cute and Taeil had seen it coming a mile away. Johnny's attempts at impressing him had been going on for a while by then and of course Taeil reciprocated. Their relationship has progressed naturally since then, or as naturally a relationship between two idols in the same group can.

And that includes the sexual aspects. It's never been a big concern of Taeil's – he hadn't had sex before he met Johnny, but fooling around was easy when they were stressed or needed some quick quality time. Johnny was never embarrassed when it came to it, utterly shameless about getting off even if Taeil only wanted to watch. Over time, though, it made Taeil curious. The first time they fucked, Johnny was careful, gentle, worried about him being in pain and trying his best to make it feel good. And it was nice, at least in Taeil's opinion. He doesn't have a lot to compare it to, after all. He had been worried that Johnny might think he was bad at it since he wasn't very experienced, but Johnny had been nothing but reassuring and loving.

And Taeil has been left wanting more. Johnny is always eager to try something new, and Taeil has been taking advantage of that more often lately. It isn't that he's tired of Johnny treating him like he's something that might break, but he sometimes wants Johnny to just... bend him over, put a few bruises on him. Nothing extreme, nothing like what Taeyong and Yuta are into, but he wants Johnny to be rougher with him. When Taeil tells him all of this, Johnny is surprisingly eager to comply. Apparently he's only been waiting for Taeil to say something. And that opens up a whole new world for them both.

Recently, Taeil has been fantasizing about it. Dreaming about it sometimes, waking up half hard and with a moan on the tip of his tongue, rutting against the bed. It takes him a long time to build up the courage to tell Johnny about it because that is the one thing that makes him feel ashamed. He doesn't want Johnny to feel like he isn't enough. He tells himself it's just a fantasy and it will pass, but then one morning Johnny looks a little upset. When Taeil asks him about it, the last thing he expects is for Johnny to ask him why he was moaning Doyoung's name in his sleep.

When Taeil finally dares to tell him, Johnny goes from upset to surprised to calculating. It isn't the reaction Taeil would have expected, but then again Johnny is full of surprises. Besides, how does someone react to their partner telling them “I want the whole group to fuck me while you watch and then I want you to come in me last”? Johnny isn't wrong to be upset about it, in Taeil's opinion. Instead he just nods after a moment of silence, and Taeil isn't sure what to make of the look on his face. “I'll think about it,” Johnny says, and that's that.