Felt Like Home Choi Jongho

To my first love

Love was not the word for what we had, it was more then love. It felt like coming home after a cold winter day, getting in to comfortable clothes and sit at the fireplace with cozy socks and a big mug of hot chocolate.
It felt like dancing in the pooring rain.
Like double rainbows.
The most beautiful sunrise and the most mesmerizing sunset.
Like walking in flower fields.
It felt like home.

But not all homes survive the storm, not all houses are build for tornados or thunder.
And we were not prepared for a storm so aggresive, we never thought that the strong house we build together would turn into a wreck. And now that the sun is back again, we do not have a roof, we dont have walls to keep us safe, we dont have the feeling of home anymore.

'I miss you' are words that keep replaying in my head, even when I do not see you anymore, even when we cut off contact one day. If I knew my last words to you were that day I would have never said them, I would have told you that you were the person that saved me, you were the person that made me feel loved when I felt like no one ever could. You helped me grow through the pain of the past and made me the strong woman I am today.

I love you, forever and always.

- M