No one ever knew my secret, I don't think anyone will ever know. I'm too afraid to be judged. I'm thinking about maybe telling my best friend , not that I don't trust her or anything, but I feel like she won't understand.
This one thing is just too important to me and if I'm ever going to tell someone I want them to actually understand. What I feel and how it feels like.
How scared I was to tell them. But putting those thoughts aside I'm on my way to my stupid school where everyone is so preppy and into sports. Like what's the big deal of sports anyhow?
Who gives a shit? Just apparently everyone in my school.
I'm an average teenager 5 foot 6 inches tall, black hair, blue eyes, square jaw, freckles, you know basically normal other then I'm goth.
As I walk up to school on a sunny bright day I see my best friend talking to a bunch of boys and flirting like she always does in the morning.
It's not like she has to try or anything she's a beautiful person with light brown straight hair, beautiful green eyes and absolutely flawless.
Sometimes I'm a little jealous of her because she's so beautiful. She looks like she should be a prep but thank god she isn't.
She hates sports just as much as I do. She's also wearing a motionless in white shirt I gave her last summer.
I finally decided to walk up to her, a smile making its way into my face while doing so.
"Hey Morgan" I say.
"Hey Damian" she replies back. "Hey guys this is Damian. Damian this is Xavier, Charles and Dominic" as she induces me to the guys she's talking to, I could feel myself become more shy.
"Hi nice to meet you." I say rather shyly. They all look at me for a second and say hi back then they turn their attention back to her and continue talking.
I feel kind of awkward at this moment, though this usually happens whenever Morgan brings guys around. I always seem to get lost in the background while they all chat away about anything and everything.
"I'm going to go class now. I will see you later?" I ask Morgan. "Ya I will be there soon" she answers back.
I go into the school, the halls were full of student and teachers making their own way to where they needed to be. I knew almost none of them, though everyone didn't know me either, even with the long three years I've attended this school I've pretty much managed to only make one friend.
Pushing away such thoughts I decided it would be best to focus more on where I'm going, so I don't get pushed or bump into anyone here. The school is so big it still surprises me and I still get lost every time we start a new semester. Can you believe that it's four stories high?
I can't.
As I walk to class I hear the bell go. "Great I'm late I again" I mumble to myself. I hate being late for class because everyone stares at you when you walk in and my parents absolutely hate it when I'm late.
I guess I'm just going to have to deal with it then, like I always do.
I walk into my math class and with no surprise everyone stares at me like I've just killed someone and they think I'm the suspect murderer. So I try to avoid eye contact to the best of my ability and sit down at the back of the room, I've become accused to this spot way at the back of the room. Though I wasn't completely alone back here, I was just glad that Morgan was assigned to be my desk partner out of the whole class.
Fifteen minutes have gone by and I'm bored out of my mind doing sheets of math equations. Like where are we going to learn any of this stuff after high school? I hate math. I only took it because my best friend did and she's a math wiz.
Speaking of which where is she? She should be here by now... So I text her. Another half hour has gone by and she's still not here and she hasn't texted me. I know she wouldn't miss this class because it's her favourite class, I felt myself become a bit nervous from this but I tired to push these thoughts away and just assumed I was overreacting.
Class is almost over now and I'm really worried that something bad happened to Morgan. I have a sick feeling in my stomach that I can't for some reason get rid of.
Finally the bell rings so I run out of class, making sure not to run into any of the other students leaving. It earned me a few strange looks but at this moment I could care less about what they think of me, I needed to see Morgan. Thinking to myself she's probably okay, but I just needed to make sure. She might of just went home sick and passed out or something.
So I asked a few people we know if they've seen her and no one has...
So I start looking around the school in a panic. I can't find her anywhere. But there's one place I haven't looked and that's the forest.
"But why would she be there?" I think to myself I will look anyways just in case, it doesn't hurt to just check.
I start heading into the forest and freeze, my body became shift and fear filled me.
I see a body just laying on the ground, the body laid there motionless which only caused my nerves to become more tense. I run towards the body and as I'm getting closer and closer I start noticing who it is.
Once I get to the body I quickly sit down and put Morgan's head on my lap. She's crying.
"What's wrong" I ask. She just shakes her head. A moment later she looks up at me and tells me she's been raped.
