Reunited: Angel's Daughter (discontinued)

chapter 3 flash back

Lav pov flash back
I was roughly 4 at the time when my mother met steve. He was a monster from the start. When we first met i hid behind my mother's leg afraid. He had this look that I didn't  like. "Mommy i wanna go home," I pleaded. "Go spend time with Steve dear. It will do you good," she said then left.

    I looked at him as his smile became sinaster. He took me to get candy only to have me feed him. He nearly bit my fingers off.  He so had me rub his feet, back, and rod. I didn't  like it. He more or less treated me as a slave. This went on for years until my mom fell pregant when I was 6. She then started to neglect me. She even moved my room to the basement. However that's  when the rape started. Steve was to marry my mother and to celebrate....he took my virginity. It was painful and an experience I would never wish on my worst enemy. I won't  go into the details but I had to be stiched up in my no no area and i had bruises, cuts, and a busted lip. My mom asked me who did this. And I poitned to her soon to be husband. "Steve would never do such a thing Lav. Who really did this  to you," she asked. She didn't  believe me.... SHE HAS THE FUCKING NERVE TO NOT BELIEVE ME?!  I started to cry. "But mom, it was him Steve. He did this to me," I said.  Suddenly....smack i felt a stinging sensation on my cheek. "How dare you slander me Lavander, and after all the things I have done for you," Steve said. I let our a sob as they left. I was in no shape to fight. And after i was dischaged. Steve raped me again. He used every hole to his pleasure. Then told me once done using me, "You dare tell anyone this and I will slit your throat and feed you to the gators." My eyes must have been dull at this point. And for months it was like this once mom was out for work he took others home and did the nasty with them. Most were u willing. I went to get help but no one would listen to a 6 year old.  My mother gave birth to a little girl. They named her Emily Roslin. I wanted to kill that infant cause no one listened to me when I held her she cried like I broke her arm or something. I approxhed her with candy at the age of 1 but her first word was "Halp," i felt anger boil up in me but i was then locked in the basement. That was in january. The beatings started after that whenever I held or approached  Emily Steve would beat me after. "FILTH SHOULDN'T TOUCH MY SUPERIOR BLOOD," steve would say and right infront of my mother too.  I was then started to be forgotten. My own mother forgets to get me clothes, to feed me, and to take me to school. The night i met uncle nissy was on the the eve of mt 8th birthday. I was born in the last month of the year.  december.  I just rememer that as after the age of 2 my mother stopped celibrating my birthday. She never let me look at my birth certificate either.... you know the rest cause it was in the prologue. But what aboht when my dad's family died?

  It was a nightmare. I was told I was worthless  by my mother, that I was never wanted by my half sister, and that all I was good for was being a bag of holes by steve. I leanerd to cook, to drive on my own, hell I tried escaping.  But to the outside world we looked like a perfect family. I was crying. My sister always said I was tryig to kill her when I dropped her off to school. That wasn't  true. I never had the heart to actually do something like that. I thought it but never acted on it.  I started to get i to the liquor celler to cope with the pain. When emily said To mother i threstaned to kill her for some petty reason i had it. MY OWN MOTHER TRUSTS THAT BRAT OVER ME I MAY AS WELL END IT ALL!!!!   I left tuat night. Snuck into school and smiled sadly as I clibed the stairs to the roof. I Opened the door to the roof and walked to the ledge. I saw people at the bottom staring at me. I mentally bid my fairwells and turned my back and let myself fall off the building i felt the cold night air and the snap of my neck.

   I never knew of my mother moruned my death howver I did leave a note. Hopefully they will find traces of what Steve had done to me in my time alive.....

Oh i forgot to mention the bullying. Hah ....  I was different from the beginning.  I bleached and dyed my hair a lilack color and i was sold since childhood I looked more like my father than my mother. I was nearly the spitting image of him.  School had always been a thorn in my side. The children always took advantage or bullied me. I was so kind not to tattle on others belivin they would change.  Days turned to years and they never changed. When I managed to make a rag tag group of friends they turned on me. "I'm sorry Lavander, I cannot be freiends with a slut," Ambrosia said she was my first friend i made and was a pretty natural blonde. "Yeah, you tend to steal other's boyfrieds or girlfriends," said Rigby another friend i made he had brown hair a vibrant green eyes.  I looked at them dumbfounded. "Have you guys seen me with a actual boyfriend or girlfriend  before," I asked as I have never dated as I never felt worthy of the person since i was raped.   HEll i prefer someone with tits and a dick. However that would  never happen. 

    "Well no but there's pictures circulating with u and my brothers now ex girlfriend," Ambrosia said bitterly.  i Realized what was going on.. someone set me up. I sighed and tried explaining but they ultimately  ended up bullying me. They dunked me in a trash can mind you it was full of vomit, and other trash.  Then loked me in the bathroom leaving me there over night. They did worse things to me but I'd  rather noth talk about it...  but still that doesn't mean I will forgive them. If i find them in hell I'll kill them.....