Rock Band Next Door ((5sos))

7.

I rushed out of the closet, slamming the door behind me. I ignored the boys' questions as I went out the front door. This was my fault. I got drunk and I'm notorious for making bad decisions when I'm drunk. Calum knew that, but he didn't stop me. I'm not blaming him, but he still played a role.
My parents were back from their anniversary trip, but thank God they were asleep by the time I walked through the door. I didn't need to be getting in trouble for being drunk.
I rushed up to my room and quickly changed my clothes. I threw the ones I was wearing into my hamper and sat on the edge of my bed. I wasn't tired. I just sat there, replaying the last thirty minutes in my head. I was so mad at myself for getting drunk and almost having sex with Calum. I leaned forward and put my face in my hands, tears threatening to spill out. I held them back. I'm tired of crying over him.
I heard a voice from the window and slightly raised my head to see Luke of all people poking his head out of Calum's window.
"Go away, Luke. I'm not in the mood," I said. Yeah it was a little harsh, but I really didn't want to talk tonight.
"I'll do bullet points. You don't have to talk. A: I'm guessing you guys kissed or something and you're sad and that's why you left. B: Calum's not talking. He's just drinking every bit of alcohol we have. C: I'm not asking you to come back, I'm just saying that I'm worried about him and I know that you know what he's like when he's had well over one too many. We can't stop him. He almost hit Ashton when he tried to take away his beer. You're the only one that knows how to calm him down. You don't have to come back, I'm not making you. I know you're sad. You have the right to be, but Calum's sad too. Can I say something that may be considered out of line?"
I nodded, still trying to process everything Luke just said.
"You're the one that broke his heart. When we went on tour after you guys broke up, he was an absolute mess. Sure, he would act happy on stage and stuff, but after the shows, he was a wreck. When we got this house, he thought it was his chance to start over, then you rang that doorbell. He took it as a sign. He would not shut up about it. He thought that this was his chance to not only start his life over, but start his life over with you. Tonight, when you took that dare, I knew it wasn't going to end well. Calum's sensitive, you know that. You can't just make out with him and then storm out without a word. He thinks you hate him. That's all he's been saying since you left. Again, I'm not making you come back over. I'm just saying, please don't lead him on. Calum's my best mate and I hate to see him sad because of a girl."
And with that, Luke shut the window and left. The tears that I was fighting back made their way out and I fell down on the bed.
This was all my fault. Calum was drinking his sadness away and it was all my fault.
I never forgave myself for leaving him and Luke just had to bring it up again. I wasn't mad at Luke for speaking his mind. What he said was true. Though, I didn't know Calum was so upset about it.
I knew I had to go back over there and apologize for leaving so suddenly, but I couldn't make my body move. I was still kind of drunk, I was exhausted, and I was just sad.
I pulled the covers over myself and eventually drifted off to sleep.
...
I woke up at nearly noon the next day. I dragged myself out of bed and went to the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror and I was a hot mess. I still had makeup on and it stained my cheeks from where I was crying last night. My hair was a mess, sticking out in different directions. My eyes were red and puffy from both crying and drinking. I groaned at my reflection and stripped myself for a shower.
Once my shower was over with, I wrapped my body in a towel and made sure my curtains were closed before I went into my room.
I didn't expect to do much today, so I just threw on a pair of comfy shorts and an old cut up muscle tee I found. I put on a sports bra and put the shirt over my head.
Once I was dressed, I open the curtains. Luckily I could see that Calum was still asleep so I didn't have to talk to him. I leaned on the window sill and just watched him for a minute. From my place at the window, I could see him sleeping peacefully on his bed. I smiled slightly, remembering how I used to do this a lot, but instead of being very very creepy and looking at him through a window, I was next to him.
He start to wake up and I bolted over to my bed.
Wow, that was creepy. I mentally took note to not do that again.
I needed to apologize today.
I needed to apologize for everything.