-Unfair- Wilbur x Reader

Chapter 14

Today is the day I didn't hope would come. Today's the judgement. I tried to collect myself in the last days but ended up continuing bottling everything up.

The others are feeling way worser than me so I ain't have the time to care about me.

However, as I entered I saw a familiar face. Jake. Only god know how much I hoped to never see him again. But I had to. Ofcourse.

Seeing Toby's parents didn't made me comfortabler too. His mums eyes were puffy and red. His dad was hugging his mum from the side.

I sat down and the trial began.

"Today we're going to discuss the case of Toby xxx"

Bottling up my emotions wasn't smart. A few tears ran down my cheeks. Why did you had to die? That's so fucking unfair.

And there we are. At the moment everything may end. The judgement was going pretty smoothly for us. But the whole time Jake had this ugly smile on his face. He didn't even cared if he ended up in prison or not.

You won't believe me how hard I wanted to punch him right into his ugly face. But ofc I didn't.

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We won the trial. Jake's in jail livelong. But as soon as I got out I immediately jumped into my car. I couldn't hold back my emotions. And everything else I bottled up.

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Arrived home I began to cry. I haven't taken a break since it happened. No realisation or anything else hitted me. But hell no it does right now.

I've had the hardest panic attack I had my whole life. Then I just continued on crying, for hours. But it wasn't that cry that made you feel relieved. No, it made me feel much worser, much more useless.

It made me feel so overwhelmed. Like I couldn't breath but in the same moment I did.

Suddenly everything felt numb. But then again overwhelming. But then again so emotionally and then again useless. Like it didn't mattered anymore.

It was a little bit like the time before I began streaming. Before I met Will and became closer friends with Tommy and, and Toby..

But much worser. I also began having a headache. And then out of the sudden everything stopped and I slowly drifted to sleep. That was worser than any rollercoaster that existed in real life.

I thought it would get better after that day. But no it didn't the next three days went on like this.

On top of that I ofcourse had no motivation for anything. Eating, drinking, even breathing. But I couldn't control that, right?

The 5th day staying at home doing nothing but sleeping crying. Drinking one thing and eating almost nothing I suddenly felt worser but also more free then ever.

I wanted to stop thinking. Forever. The nexy thing I recall standing at my window. Not even questioning my decision. 'Cause I already did that before. And then-

Pov: The old lady from the park

What a tumult. Many sirens were coming closer and closer. As they arrived I got out of my apartment to see what happened.

I walked downstairs and saw two men standing infront of the open door from that young women. I can't recall her name. I'm getting old.