A LIFE FULL OF LIE

CHAPTER 1

Maureen's POV
It's currently 2:24 A.M. and here I am contemplating the purpose of my life and starring blankly at my ceiling. If someone walks in on me doing this they would probably think I'm going insane.

If you're wondering why I am doing this , I don't know either. Its just that during these times it's so easy to get lost in your thoughts and get carried away by it. Dawn is probably the time where I feel the most vulnerable , the peacefulness and deafening silence can sometimes be overwhelming. This is the only time where I'm able to let my true feelings and emotions show without getting nervous about someone judging me , it is sad and depressing but at least I still have an outlet where I can be myself even though most of the time I am drowning in sorrow and self loathing.

I don't really have any solid plans for my life since my father controls everything I do. My father has his own family , I am just a product of his infidelity. He had an affair with my mother when his wife was pregnant with their first baby. My mother had me while she was still young , I think she was around 19 years old when she had me but unfortunately she died while she was trying to give birth to me. She was just starting with her life and it was suddenly taken away from her , she didn't even get to experience life after her college years just because of me.

I never had the chance to visit her grave because father won't tell me where she was buried. He didn't tell me anything that revolves around her , whenever I ask some questions about her he just ignores me or scolds me for asking about someone who's already gone. Honestly what's so wrong about asking about someone who carried me in their womb for 9 months and died while giving birth to me. All I wanted was to know even just a little bit about my mother , it's so unfair that he gets to be play happy family with his wife and daughter while he won't even tell me anything that involves the woman who gave birth to me , he didn't even tell me her name.

BTW this is Thesa Maureen Villegas , 18 years of age , bi and ready to die.