The Love You Give and Take

Peace

TRIGGER WARNING

PROCEED WITH  CAUTION ⚠️
Drug use, abuse, suicide attempt

Zara POV

A I ran out of the school I kept thinking of my brothers. What have they been doing while I was gone? Why didn't Declan look for me? Why do I feel so stupid for wanting to go with them? Question upon questions flooding my mind, and I needed a release.

I ran to the corner where I know a guy who can hook me up with some pain pills, just to numb the pain for a second. As I reach the corner my brothers now in the back of my head, all I can think about is finding a way to make the pain go away.

As I buy the pills off him with the money I have stole, I take 2 hoping to numb everything. However, I got in my thoughts like I always do and the dark thoughts started to cloud my mind.

FLASHBACK

My father was my superhero turned villain and I was to young to understand why. He has been drinking away his pain after my mom left and taking his anger out on me and my brothers.

"Zara! Get in her right now!" My dad screamed from the living room. I was scared because when he drinks he tends to think I'm my mom because I look so much like her, a blessing and curse if you ask me.

I hobbled down the stairs quickly  careful of my sore leg and to hopefully lessen my punishment.

"You look just like your mother. She was my world, but whenever I look at you all I see is her and I hate it, and it makes me hate you more, go get me a beer!"

I understood why he hated me, I hate me too sometimes, so to make him less angry I decided to get the beer and cause less trouble. At the time It was only me and Dec or Bubba as I call him here. However, Declan was asleep tired from a screaming and physical match he had with our father.

As I made my way back to the living room the pain in my leg was throbbing as my dad had pushed me down the stairs. I think there is a break in there somewhere, but the hospital is not an option.

Walking on it is making it so much worse and when I turned the corner I felt my leg shift and I landed in a bad way, the beer which once occupied my hand rolling away from me, taunting me because I know I am getting it now.

My dad storms up to me and grabs me by my hair.
"You are so stupid, can't even do a simple task. This is why your mother left, she couldn't deal with your stupid a**!" He says. By now my head is throbbing from he amount of force he used to grab my hair and I can feel my tears start to fall. I always tell myself not to cry, but it is hard when the person you once love is the person you are most scared of.

When the grip he has in my hair tightens he uses his other hand to slap me right across the face. That's gonna leave a bruise I have to cover up. I thought he was done, but he starts to kick and abuse my ribs and with every kick I scream. At this point Declan rushed in to see what was going on. Always my hero, he is. He pushes my dad off me and starts to attack him, whilst I cry in the corner. Once he knocked my dad unconscious he picks me up careful of my ribs and brings me to his room.

In his room he starts to carefully patch me up like he always does, just like I do for him.

"One day me and you will get out of here I promise, and when that days comes we won't need anybody just me and you always and forever. I promise." Declan says tears in his eyes.

"Always and forever Bubba."

END OF FLASHBACK

I don't notice when I started crying, but the pain wasn't going away, and I decided to take 3 more pills, I had nothing to lose anymore. My thoughts were killing me, so I should just kill them and the only way was to end myself. Like I have always wanted. Peace from my thoughts from the cruel hand of others, so that's what I did. I did something for myself.

I could feel myself slipping away. Beautiful thoughts of my childhood filling my head. As I laid on the cool pavement I could hear shouts of my name, but who would call me? Nobody wanted me I was worthless, a nobody, a burden to everyone I met. With these thoughts I let myself go, I felt the pain in my heart subside and for once in all long time I felt absolute peace.

Hi butterflies 🦋
I'm sorry that was sad, but no worries Zara will someday get a true peace. Ezra POV is next. What's in the mind of an angry brother. Leave comments and reactions

Bella 💙