The Invisible Mask Of Fears || Tae ff

5. Personality Disorder

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Y/N drove off to a place which was isolated and was beautiful with the help of nature. A placed surrounded by trees and greenery with a small waterfall coming from one of the rocks and getting mixed in the small pond. This was the only place which comforted Y/N when she is having personality disorder or panic attack or anxiety attack or maybe all together like she has right now.

Y/N got out of the car screaming and crying loudly. Her head spinning around, even she didn't knew what she was doing. She kept on screaming and crying and then suddenly she stopped. It was as if she turned into another person.

"This ugly bitch can't handle anything. Tch...Tch...Tch......Seems like I gotta give her a punishment. Bwahaha"
Y/n's other personality said with tears continuously streaming down her face as she was laughing.

She went to the car and took out a knife from dashboard which Y/N always keeps for safety purposes. She never thought that her personality disorder will make her use that knife on herself. She started cutting her wrist while tears flowed and she was happy giving this punishment. She kept on cutting her wrist, not deep cuts but also not light ones, she did it till there was no space left was on her hand to make cut and blood was dripping down. After Y/N's other personality was satisfied after seeing blood she stopped the punishment and suddenly Y/n screamed out loud in pain.

Y/N turned back to her self after the personality disorder. Her hands were not trembling now except for her left hand which had cuts on it. She screamed out loud crying in pain.

"Arghhh!!! I-it hurts !! H-how did I get s-so many cuts ??" Y/n said dropping the knife and falling down on ground while holding her arm tightly as it was bleeding continuously.

she couldn't process anything and kept on sobbing due to pain till there was no more bleeding from her wounds. The wounds were deep enough to give pain for a week and have scars for another one week.

After a while she came to her senses and was no longer trembling. The bleeding also stopped so she went to her car and wiped off the blood with tissue papers. She then washed her wound with the help of pond water. Her wrist had turned red but thankfully her personality disorder, anxiety attack and panic attack were over.

~Can continue to read~

After setting up herself like before and stopped crying, she went near the pond and sat with her feet in water. The cold soothing breeze from waterfall gave her the comfort which she very much needed. The sound of water flowing down calmed her mind. She was now in a better condition than before.

"How long will it go on?? Can I survive more here? It turned out that after leaving this house I thought I became bold but instead I'm more weak. Ottoke!?" Y/n said all broken to no one around but the nature. The only thing which surrounded this little Y/n in a big comforting embrace.

"It's late now and it's soon gonna be dark. Others must be worried about me. I'll go now. Thank you for your help beautiful nature." Y/n said with a cute baby smile and drove off to the house.

~Few Minutes Later ~

I turned the car around the corner and saw Taehyung standing out. He wasn't dressed warmly and looked cold as he was rubbing his arms continuously. to keep himself warm. He came towards the car as he saw me parking.