Haven | c.s

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„Oh hey daughter dearest" my dad laughed surprised as I walked down the stairs „didn't know that there's no school for you today" he said putting his hand sideways around my back to give me a kiss on to my head
„Morning dear old dad" I said with a smile , the greetings are some kind of insiders,we do them since I was like 3.   „well technically there is school" I followed him into the kitchen
„Why aren't you there then hav?" he turned around to face me with a more serious look
„Didn't feel so great" I shrug
„Oh sick or just not well?" he gave me an empathetic smile
„Just not well" I answered his question grabbing an apple
„Well i gotta go, I Hope you'll get better hav. Have a great day darl" he said kinda waving me goodbye walking out of the kitchen.

Shortly after I heard the sound of the door clicking into the lock, meaning that my dads gone and that I'm alone at home now.

Just as I made my way over to the living room, my phone made a ding letting me know that I've gotten a message.
I looked at the display and saw that it was a few more messages than just one.
There were some of Nick, Mals and Chris oh and my mom.

Nickopath

Hav where are you?!

Seriously get your ass over here

Hello!?

Ok if you're sick than get better soon ❤️‍🩹

                       
                        Yeah sorry, not feeling so well<3

Mals
You do not skip school that often so
get better soon love <3
                   Thanks Mals,just not feeling so well

Momma bear
Dad told me bout it, make yourself a
great day.
See you soon ❤️
                                                    ❤️

Chrissy
Wishing you a great day lovely
                             Wishing you one too, I ❤️ u
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I answered all of the Texts and watched a movie after,while cuddling with matcha.
Because I didn't want to be alone and was craving cuddles.
Day four without my boyfriend, I don't even know why it made me so sad. I never was so attached to anyone or anything.
It just felt weird, I miss him and I kind of need him right now.
I mean everyone got their prom invitations from their boyfriend and I just watched them sitting there thinking about Chris, who was working and not with me.
Omg I'm such a Toxic girlfriend.
And with that thought I just started bawling my eyes out.
I literally just cried for an hour over how much I miss him, how „bad" of a girlfriend I'm, how insecure I'm and Over how much I hate myself sometimes.
At some point I started playing sad songs of harry styles and just layed flat on my back staring at the ceiling , feeling lost and numb. Matcha was laying on my stomach and gin also came for cuddles and was laying next to me, making me feel not so alone anymore.
I just layed there
And layed there
And layed there
Until there was a knock at my door
I stood up and walked towards it,while doing so I came across a mirror and saw my miserable me in it , messy bun looking like a bird nest, red eyes, mascara all over my face, big hood on, over all I just looked awful.
I didn't care how I looked, whoever was at my door would have to live with the homeless look.
„What can I do for y-„ I said opening up the door getting interrupted by looking up and realising who my guest was „nick, oh hello"
„What happend to you?" he pointed up and down with his finger
„Oh nothing, everything's good" I shook my head
„I don't think so" he says stepping trough the door pushing me slightly aside „ you'll have to tell me, I won't leave until you did" he closed the door
„It's nothing, like I said I'm fine" I trail behind him into the living room
„That's what you can tell you're parents but not me" he sat down on the couch „sit"
I did like he said and let myself fall next to gin with a huff.
„You act like a mom" I said annoyed
„I don't care, now tell me" he insisted
I figured that he was serious about the not leaving thing so I told him everything.
Hoping that I'll be alone again soon.
„Aw babe „ he hugged me because I started crying again „ don't listen to yourself you're valid, you matter, you're one of the prettiest girls I've ever met and you're character is out of gold. „ he started rocking me in our hug „Chris loves you sooo much and I and Matt do Too. You're my sister havy I'll always be there for you" he whispers „ now wipe you're tears away princess" he says holding my head in his hands, wiping my mascara away with his thumb.
„thank you nickopath" I smile at him wiping my tears away too
„I'll let your boy know that he has to come back asap" nick nodded smilingly
„Thanks for checking up on me,but you'll have to get trough the day tomorrow alone" I chuckle „I'm not well enough for school"
„Yeah I get that" he smiled understandingly
And then I just hugged him for two minutes
We watched a movie and after a few more hours he left my house.
Leaving me with my thoughts, all I did for the rest of the day was watching movies and laying downstairs, even when my family came home.
At some point I ate and then went to bed again