ℑ𝔫 𝔩𝔬𝔳𝔢 𝔴𝔦𝔱𝔥 𝔞𝔫 𝔦𝔡𝔦𝔬𝔱 // daybreak fanfic // rewriting

𝖈𝖍𝖆𝖕𝖙𝖊𝖗 𝖘𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖓

I woke up and looked on the other side of the gate. No one was there anymore, the mattress was empty just with some folded blankets. I looked around and the only thing I could see was Miss Crumble looking at some food, a moment after a bird showed up and stole whatever was the thing she had. I started laughing quietly, she ran after the bird screaming. I can't take this bizarre I swear, what the hell happened to my mall? I continue laughing at her and then Josh shows up. He tries to tell her something but realizes that it's no use. She continues running after that bird and I finally calm down. Josh grabs his backpack and walks toward one of the hallways that lead to the main exit. Is he finally leaving? I had enough of him, this would for sure make my day better. Though, wouldn't Michelle leave too? I have no idea if she would prefer to stick with Angelica and Wesley or help him find Sam. It would make sense that she would prefer to find her best friend, but she seemed pretty determined to protect Angelica. I stayed up hours after she went to sleep thinking. I couldn't understand what she meant by saying that she never had a proper family before. I thought that her family was okay, she always had pretty clothes and did well in school. How fucked up could her life really be? Then the other thing that was stuck in my mind was when she told me I was cool. No one ever told me that, and I have never received even the smallest compliment. All I ever wanted was to be cool and liked. If she really thought I was, maybe I'm not that lost. Even though I'm sure she must think that it was lame when I pretended to have a girlfriend. Why did I even say that in front of her in the first place? Now even though she knows the truth, I have to lie to Wesley, Angelica, and Josh. They would for sure find the truth pathetic, I do too. I know it was pathetic to say and lie about, but sometimes I just talk without thinking. I don't know why my brain can't comprehend that we are not in high school anymore, that I don't have to be a tryhard knockoff. It just doesn't, so I say shit I don't realize I'm saying or how could they affect others. Maybe that's why I'm so lonely. Well, it definitely is. Wesley and Angelica show up. "What the hell do you think you are doing?" Angelica yells at him. "Your finger looks horrible." He scans it with his eyes. "Yeah I lost some blood, and the gangrene is spreading, but I'm fine. I'm fine." He says and continues to pack more stuff. He definitely isn't fine, even I can tell. Michelle should tell him something, he will listen to her. Wait, why do I care? He can die if he wants to, just because my old high school crush is his friend, it doesn't mean I care. It's not like I still like her anyway. "The truest warrior knows when to hold 'em and when to fold 'em." Wesley looks kinda concerned as he says that. Does he care for him too know? What is Michelle doing to everyone? "Guys, look, I'm fine. Sam is still out there somewhere and I have to-" He doesn't finish cause he passes out again and falls into some cart. That asshole, how could he even consider leaving in that state? "Mmm. You are taking a day off." Wesley says and drags him away, probably back to bed. Angelica sits down and begins to work on some of her bombs. Then, Michelle shows up. I have to stop and stare. She looks, so different than before. Her hair is brushed and not in two braids anymore, she has it up in a bun, with some of her hair out of it. Her face is washed, she looks so much like her old self when she isn't covered in mud and blood any more. I can see her scar way better now, and honestly, it makes her look badass. She had some tight, black crop top on with camouflage pants, also a lot of leather knife holders and new shoes. She looks so badass and so pretty. "Oh my god, you look hot again!" Angelica yells when she sees her. She bows like they do in theatre, exactly like she used to do back in school. Then she does a little spin on her right foot. "Thank you hun, what are you working on?" She sits down next to Angelica. "Those smoke bombs from pepper spray, it's going to work. It was a good idea." They smile at each other. "Also, Josh wanted to leave but passed out again, his finger looks bad. I'm pretty sure it's infected. Wesley took him to bed." It is visible that Michelle gets pissed and concerned at the same time. "That dumbass. We are going to need to take care of him." As she says that, Wesley gets back. "I checked the map of the mall, there is a pharmacy here. So we have only one issue." Michelle gets up and looks at him pretty confused. "And that is?" He looks at me. "It's on his side." Michelle turns her head at me and shows Angelica with her eyes that she should get up. All of them walk up to me. "Will you give us some antibiotics?" I pretend to think for a bit. "Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh, no." I answer and flip Wesley off. I don't have any, but they don't need to know that. Angelica strikes the gate. "Listen up, piss midget." How did she just call me? " The target on your side has a pharmacy. We need those antibiotics, or Josh will die.." "Saving a human life is the highest form of karmic reward, Eli." Wesley joins her in trying to change my mind. "Karma was my cousin Mia's stripper name, and now she is a puddle of skin on Central Avenue. Karma is dead." And this is exactly when I talk before thinking. Why did I tell them that? It's weird enough for them to know that my cousin was a stripper and stupid of me to use her death as a comeback. She was nice, I kinda miss her. So why did I say something so dumb? I can see Michelle's face change a bit in disappointment. She sits on a bench and plays with her knife, now she put it down and just looked at me. I'm such a dick. "Do you want Josh to die?" Angelica asks. I get up, pissed. Not sure if on myself or them for locking me up. Maybe both? "I want my fucking mall back! You heathens are trespassing, but if you let me go. I'll dose you some of my pharma to save Josh." I say and point at them, at least I tried saving it in the end. I almost said that I'll give it to them if they leave. The last thing I want is to be alone again. I turn my back to them and wait if they accept. I can't bear to look at Michelle's disappointed face for another second. Maybe she finally realized that I'm a bad guy, but even though I think that. I don't want her to do so too. She is giving me hope, that I could be normal and have friends who trust me. And I continue to fuck it up. "So you have antibiotics?" Angelica asks, visibly considering my offer. I don't, and I can't be such a dick and make them let me out only to find out that. They would lock me back up and never trust me again. "Well, no but I have other stuff that could help. Ice packs, Luna bars. Good ones. No lemon bullshit." I finish and realize that won't work, they will never let me out just for that.