My life [diary]

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okay soo i wanna tell yall something but first i need to tell the back story!

So i had this male friend i met him on spotafriend (a good app if you wanna meet new people) and we became really close with eachother. he lives in asia/ combodia and i live in europe/The netherlands. we got an big time diff so we used to stay up all night to text with eachother and i then catched feelings for him, we would give eachother advice about stuff. my brother took my phone and i wasnt allowed to go on it for a 1 month (bc i was talking with that male friend) and then he deleted every friend of mine of my phone even him, lets call that friend JJ. so i was trying to contact JJ because we were pretty close. i was searching for hes instagram and when i found it i confronted him. he was really dry to me he would respond late on my text so i blocked him cause i wasnt in the mood for that. a few months later in 2022 march i was hanging out with a friend of mine that also got JJ's instagram bc of me (she doesnt like JJ) and she told me that JJ texted her to ask me to de-block him and she respondend 'no she doesnt want to, leave her alone, she already moved on you should too' But i was still confused why he wanted to talk to me so i de-blocked him and i asked him why he wanted to talk. and he said he wanted to know how i was doing. Then we started to talk again it was really fun talking to him. and he started to flirt with me and all of that and asked everyday for a picture we would send a video of a cat that grabs the camera and kisses it and that shit. But still i didnt catch feelings (i didnt have feelings for him anymore) he then sended a whole text saying stuff and the whole text just said 'i dont wanna be friends anymore' so i was like okay i understand. then we didnt talk with eachother for 1 month or something and i would be getting those card reading tiktoks tht would say 'he/she regrets, he/she misses you, you and the person dont got contact anymore, he/she will text you fast' and all and one day i was on tiktok and then i got a massage from discord so i was checking who texted me and JJ texted me, i was confused but i thought it maybe an accidnt. and then he was all acting like nothing happend to me and JJ and i dont let that slide!

*you getting my discord*

so he said that and i said 'you coudnt tell me?' and he said 'no' and some other bullshit like first of all if you loved her first you woudnt fall for me and you did, and he shoudnt think im an option like WTF?!. So im getitng annoyed how he acted like nothing happend you know? so then i texted my best cousin from morocco and i told him about it and he said i should drop him and all of my friends said the same. and then a few weeks later i texted him again about JJ and i told him about me getting annoyed about it and about me wanna block JJ and then my cousin said i shoudnt block him but ignore him and then i asked 'should i text him about it' and he said 'no you got nothing to explain' and hes right!! so im still stugelling with it cuz boy is still texting me and hes not putting FUCKING afford in it

please giveme adviceee

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