My life [diary]

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okay so i yesterday i was hanging out with my friend, lets call her N. So i was hanging out with her and it was not like 21:30 it was still light outside cuz its summer. and even tho its light outuside my brotehr wants me to get home but my friends was getting pizza so i went with her and i told my mom that and she told my brother (M) and they were both okay with it. 20 min later or something i got home and i went to my room to get on the laptop to text her about some stuff. But the laptop wasnt there so i asked my mom if she got it and she said no so i texted my brother (he was outside, hes 24 so he can) and i asked him do you got the laptop and he said 'yes' and i asked 'where is it, can i go on it' and he ignored it and then i texted 'can you please tell me' and he responded on that with 'its late go to sleep we'll talk tomorrow, goodnight' and i was scared because he fucked up my mental heath at a really young age. so then i started crying to my mom that i am scared and then he never nice to me and that he smiles when someone talks to him but hes smile disapears when i talk to him (hes 11 years older then me) and that just hurts. so my mom told me she will talk to him. So i got to bed ready to sleep and i hear him coming home and he opens my door and he aint acting sweet no he fr said 'i just took your laptop, you dont need to cry, im just gonna talk not scream at you, your acting like the whle world is ending' and al shit and then today. i coudnt cconcentrait at school because i was scared, i felt dizzy, nauseous ect and when i got home he wasnt there at all.. like nowhere not in any room so i waited for him 1 hour and he still wasnt there so i got to my friends to stay with her and get some rest.

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