natsukashii

3 - Sienna

Xiennah,

Sorry for leaving Sienna at my parent's house. I just need a week to clear my mind. Rest assured, that I will be a great father for her. I will give her the love that she deserves and the love that I will never be able to give to you again. 

"DADDY!" Soon as I rung the doorbell, I heard the shout of my little baby. She hugged me tight and started to cry. I lift her up and let my butler to carry my bags to my room while consoling my little princess.

Soon as I enter the mansion, dad and mom leave for some business meetings that they need to attend. Ever since I was a child, my parents would always left me alone inside this house. They are giving me everything that I want but even though I had everything, something is missing.

I cannot hate them though because they're giving me everything, as in capital everything. I always think that "I should be contented right?" but even so I still long for my parents love. 

Sienna is our daughter, she's now 6 years old. I want to give her the love that I have never experienced with my parents. 

The first time that I saw her, I cried like an "ugly potato", according to Xiennah. My heart was so full, I can hear my heart beating like a drums. I felt contented with my new family.

That day I decided to give her everything, not just in the material aspects but also to support her in all aspects. I dedicated my life both to Xiennah and Sienna.

Sienna resembles her mother, every time that I look at her, she reminds me of Xiennah. I can't help but cry sometimes. My parents and Xiennah's the one who pursue me to take a vacation for one week right after her death.

They said that if I stay with Sienna in my sleep deprived and depressed self, it will just sadden my dear little princess, so I decided to go. I collected a cherry blossom flowers and put it in a bottle to give it to Sienna.

She was so happy, she said that it was the same like her mom's but the only thing is that Xiennah's flowers were already withered. I didn't notice that there is a tear in my eyes not until Sienna kiss it.

"Daddy why are you crying? do you miss mommy? don't worry dad, she will wake up soon. She's just sleeping." Oh God, how do I tell her without hurting her that her mom will never wake up again. 

But don't worry Sienna, even if mom isn't here, I know that she is watching us. I will raise you alone. I will be your mom and dad. I will not make you feel that your mom isn't here. I will raise you like the other kids out there who has a complete parents. I will make you feel that you have a complete parents all by myself.

Xiennah and Sienna, my two lovely girls in my life. I will both make you happy, just give me some time.