I Married My Bestfriend

Feelings....ugh 2.0

*Author's POV*

And well.... let's just say that the next morning, both of them were so sore and tender in some places that it hurt for them to move almost anything. When Mel finally stirred, she found herself lying in the crook of Cree's bruised up neck with their arm wrapped around her. She held her head up slowly. She glanced at the other side of the room to see her clothes in a pile on the floor. She sighed with a smirk and rolled her eyes. Cree stirred awake, noticing the change of pressure on her boob.
"Did we...?" Mel asked,already knowing the answer. Cree nodded, yawning sleepily,stretching her long arms over her head.

Mel ran her hands through her long,brown,even more tangled now hair,wincing as she felt pain on her neck. She ran her hand along the hickeys and bite marks that Cree had given her and smiled as she glanced at the ones she gave her. And other marks.... She glided her eyes up to Cree's face,gazing dreamily at the relaxed,peaceful look on her face.

"That was the best night of my life....You don't know how long I've dreamed of doing that...", Cree said wistfully,sighing and crossing her arms behind her head.

Mel scoffed,smiling.

"What, fucking me, you horny-ass lesbian?", she asked playfully as she turned to face her.

"Not just that, to adore you, to show you how special you are, to show you how much I love you." Cree responded back, looking at her lovingly.

"Dang, that was the most romantic thing anyone(including Jamie) has ever said to me.", Mel thought. She smiled at her curiously.

"Do you really mean that?", Mel asked her, twirling a strand of Cree's coiled hair around her finger.

Cree nodded and told her about all the times she would get butterflies in her stomach whenever she texted her or she made her laugh. How mad she became when guys would treat her like a piece of shit and she knew that she could treat her better. And even if she didn't love her back, she still wanted her to be happy with someone, so when she wasn't happy with the guys she was with, she just got so frustrated that she drunk or played her guitar to numb the pain because SHE wanted to be with her but couldn't...even though she would never feel that way about her. And how she had felt this way about her since high school. But never told her because she was scared that she would've wanted nothing to do with her.

As Mel listened, she thought,"This girl literally CRIES over me....Oh god....I've put her through so much pain without ever realizing it...." Mel started crying softly as she pushed herself into a sitting position and pushed her knees up.

"Why are you crying now, beautiful?" Cree asked her. Mel glanced down at her and asked,"Now?",curiously with a surprised look. Cree smirked, remembering the sounds of Mel's screams and moans. "Just answer the question, why are you crying?", she said as she sat up, putting her hair into a loose ponytail.

"Because I've put you through so much pain over the years without ever realizing it....and you're STILL friends with me...." Mel croaked.

Cree gave her a weak smile. "Don't worry about it too much, you had no idea. I should've told you way sooner,anyway."

"I should have been able to tell...we're best friends for god sakes! That's why your relationships never lasted long....oh god...and I used to tell you about all my dates, and--", Mel continued to sob.

Cree sighed and grabbed Mel's wrists gently, pulling her towards her. Mel blushes slightly at how close she was to Cree's face. "Listen, please don't blame yourself. I should have told you in highschool. I'm just so sorry I never told you until now. But it is what it is and besides... you're getting married in a few months. And you'll be happy, that's all that matters. I'll be okay,after a little while."

Cree isn't lying to herself but as of right now,it doesn't feel that way. The bitter,cold cruel reminder that she was never going to be able to truly call Mel her's,shook her to the core.