The diary of a human being

We never learnt to swim

I feel like I'm drowning.
Constantly searching for air bubbles to get one more breath out as the last one didn't come out the way I intended it to.

I never wanted to feel like this.

Why do we feel like this.

Drowning, as if someone had forgotten to take the time to teach us how to swim, we desperately flail our limbs hoping we will contort ourselves just the right way to make us surface. 
Non of it really matters though does it. Because our exhaustion gets the better of us and we slow our movements, slow our breathing.

our lungs fill with desperation as we sink deeper into feelings we never learned how to rationalize.
We learned how to cover our noses but not our ears, which filled just as fast.

Feelings like waves high as sky scrapers we extend our hands hoping for someone to save us, something to bring us to shore.

Something to ground us.

  there is nothing but deep dark blue waters full of blurry faces and fading dreams.
How far do we think we can sink till someone saves us.   how low can we go until our lungs burst and we are speechless as we no longer know how to communicate how we feel.   
   we can no longer control our limbs as the pressure begins to crush us. Who we are and who we were means nothing to the sea.

  we just become what is the deep dark blue waters of which we have drowned ourselves in.