𝙂𝙧𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙛𝙪𝙡

Thank you.... And I'm sorry

Camellia walked with steady footsteps and a blank face, holding a Bouquet of White Roses.

She finally stopped walking as she arrived in front of single grave, the grave had a sole rose on it.

Her expression finally cracked a little.

"I'm grateful for you.... Sorry, I never noticed your suffering."

She kneeled in front of the grave.

"You never showed me... I thought I was the greatest pretender.."

She sighed as she caressed the grave after putting the bouquet of white flowers on it.

"Clearly, I wasn't. You won the war, Isaac."

She stared at the grave for a very long time before starting to speak again, her tone was still as empty as the start.

"I never knew you were sick. I never knew that you hid all your suffering behind that goofy smile."

She pushed her hair that was moved by the wind back, and continued.

"I never knew you actually loved me."

Her tone held some regret and disbelief, as if her sentence was unbelievable.

"And the fact that I didn't know at all... I'm amazed. Isaac, again I give you my admiration."

"But I think, you won't really receive them now. Would you?"

"You idiot, I was with you almost every day."

"You were the one who actually encouraged me to realize my love. Now you tell me that you actually loved me?"

"You? My dearest best friend....? You didn't even try to fight for my love... You just wanted me to be happy... "

Her tone seemed to have more emotions with every word.

"You stayed by my side, never left. Yet I didn't give you the slightest of the admiration you deserved..."

"Isaac, there is another family I have. They don't know anything about you. I never mentioned your name. Despite how you were always there, in the back holding me tightly to not fall."

"I regarded you as my guardian angel, and never talked about you. I treated your existence with me as something natural."

She clenched her fists, eyes filled with regret staring at the grave in front of her.

"I didn't appreciate you enough, you, the person who helped me the most aside from my lover... Isaac, why did you do this to me?"

"Why did you make your presence as something that was only normal? That I didn't even notice your suffering.... Why did you decide to only tell me.... When I can't even say thank you...?"

She felt her vision getting blurry, but she didn't even wipe her teary eyes.

"Isaac, you left so fast that I couldn't give you anything in return for all the things you did to me."

"Isaac, if I said that I'm sorry, will this bring you back? If I loved you, will that help you? Will my suffering bring you some joy in the afterlife, or my happiness?... "

She found her last words to be funny, she laughed shallowly.

"Who am I kidding? You and me both know... You will only enjoy my happiness..."

She smiled softly, tears running down her cheeks.

"Isaac, it's too late for me to regret. This is the only time that you were cruel to me. Your message that held all your suffering and deep love for me, I'll treasure it."

She wiped her tears as she stood up, whispered one last thing before leaving the grave.

"Isaac.... Even though everyone else is with me... My heart is lonely without you.. Thank you... And I'm sorry.. Thank you, my dearest friend... Sorry for being so cruel to you..."

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That's it. Hopefully you enjoyed. I'm not in a condition to write anything else. I wanted to let some of my mood I guess?

I have a question though.

Was Camellia so cruel as she said?

Thanks for reading. Love you my readers.