Abnormality

Chapter 4

Hadiya

Here is what's wrong with me, throwing the papers in his lap

...suffered from head trauma, retrograde amnesia; episodic memory....

What does any of this mean?

I can't remember anything that happened before the accident, more specifically I don't remember events like birthdays, our relationship, and the birth of our child. Which really hurts me . It also hurts that I am having a really hard time getting in tuned with my emotions. I know you want us to build our relationship again but I can't love you. I don't know how to. You deserve so much better. I think we should just be friends. Maybe I should just move out and figure out how to get my life back on track.

No, you're staying your hardheaded ass right here. I'm not giving up on you. I'm not going to lose you again. I love you too damn much. I know that you feel the same way even though you don't recognize the genuine connection that is deeply rooted inside of us. We are going to get through this. We just have to continue to fight so the love that we have can manifest and prosper.

I gave him a hug and I wished that I had not have done it . I didn't want to leave his arms. I couldn't register what was happening between us. He tilted my chin and just gazed into my eyes. He licked his lips. I hate it when he does that shit. He got closer to my lips. I felt as if I couldn't breathe. I tucked mine in and he pulled away and laughed. It's not even funny. He should know better. I can't do this , not yet, maybe not ever.

How do I know if I can or do genuinely love him? How do I know that I'm just feeling like this because he is the only one I know that cares? I need to find out who I am and who I was. Who is Hadiya Giselle Spencer?

I need to get access to my medical records and other information. Will you help me?

you already know the answer, as he licked his lips.

Stop! Stop, right now !

Stop what? smirks

You know exactly what you are doing !

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August

August, why are we at the zoo? How does this help me?

We used to come here all the time. You loved animals just not in your house.

Oh Okay, what were my favorite animals?

Let's just walk around. I'm sure you will figure that out on your own, as I grabbed her hand.

She quickly let go of my hand.

What's wrong?

You're August, August Alsina, next thing you know the cameras start flashing.

Do you think I give a damn?

You should, or at lease about the girl who is looking at me with the death stare.

I don't give a fuck about .....Sabrina

I looked straight ahead and it was her. After all this time I forgot that I haven't completely broken up with her.

shit

Who tf is she?

Sabrina, not here, not now.

yes, right now! How you gon' drop me for that bitch?

calling Hadiya out of her name never did set well with me .