After all of these events my beautiful angel was dealing with a lot of grief so I suggested her to go to counseling for grief and her and I looked for grief group counseling and when she went it went so well while I waited in the car planning out my next murders and her lunch for tomorrow I love making her food, I don't feed her my victims if that is what you are worried about she doesn't deserve to eat garbage when I feel like a victim is good enough to eat I it eat the person myself, lets not get into that for now. The love of my life looks less stressed after those people died I feel bad now is this guilt..? Me and her will get through this her dealing with grief of losing her loved ones and me dealing with the guilt of killing her whole family. I am not a bad guy at all trust me if they didn't do anything wrong this would have never happened at all they are the only ones to blame for their own deaths but what can I say. Personally I never cared for any of them I already pictured all of them dead but at least they went out in the fire instead of what I had in mind. I did more digging and found some bad people who got out of jail I can test out some of my new ideas on them its such a shame that some of those wives openly defend them. I can't hurt anyone around her anymore it backfires on me always. If I do get caught by the police I will kill myself I cannot bare the thought of her seeing me behind bars or finding out what I have done even if I don't get the chance to die before they catch me I hope she knows I did it for love and she will always be in my mind. I hope when I get put in jail she can forgive me for the things I have done, I could give less of a shit what the press would say no one knows what I did except for me and I still give my all for her every day. You can say I'd do anything for love and what I did was for love who ever is seeing my actions from above can say that and I can say that with confidence.
No matter what I will love her forever she is my angel and I am no religious person but that is the best way to describe her. She is my sun and she says I am her moon isn't that sweet she thinks of so many things she has a beautiful mind, it's weird to think about the sight of her mothers skull caved in her brains everywhere. I don't feel guilty for what I did to her mother she was a raging bitch trapped inside a sweet looking woman I feel like people would say the same about me when they find out what I have done not really though I mean I am pretty tall and muscular everywhere I work out after I have thoughts of killing people to control those thoughts. I work hard for her to live a comfortable life I don't ever want her to struggle or ever not get what she wants she deserves it for the shit. I have love for her like no other no one can understand why I have done these things maybe no one ever will but as long as she knows I love her from the moon and back I'm okay with that. I love her more than the god of love can offer to the whole entire human population, who ever that god is would not approve of what I've done to keep that kind of love though. I planned on killing her ex's because there should be no one before me to lay their hands on her no one should hurt her or cause any harm to my angel mentally or physically. I started with her freshman year boyfriend he was a average guy I didn't like him he took her first kiss so I cut off his lips and stabbed him in his face 46 times in a row that worked up a sweat I can tell you that I ate his eyes he had pretty hazel eyes it was nice seeing the light of his eyes go away when he was dying while the moonlight hit his face and body on top of him, found out he was a scammer for old people it doesn't matter anymore though. Her therapy group is going well now and she seems to get better now I love seeing her happy she is still mourning her family and i'm moving onto my next targets I have to wait a bit I have to lay low for now. I don't mind cooking and cleaning and all of that plus working, I hate men who complain about those simple things I should kill some of those guys no woman should go through that my girlfriend was telling me about her friend who was going through that and she was worried about her. I went to her friends house I broke in of course and cleaned the house her husband wasn't there thats pretty lucky I was already in a bad mood and if got the chance to release that it would have been quite a mess. Fun fact about me I don't really like killing I do it for love and it releases tension and stress in my opinion so it's nice to kill and I don't care about anyone except for my girlfriend and those who make her happy other than that everyone else can burn in hell. A girl was checking me out in the gym today I didn't like that too much and I was still mad about this morning I drowned her in a lake took her back to my girlfriends 2 ex's place. two down in one month and no one suspects me.
I hate the feeling of being watched its honestly a problem its starting to get me more paranoid everywhere i go no matter what i watch who or what is behind me watching. I
