him.

Part 1

as soon as she open the door she realized that everything she knew was a lie, she gasped and slowly moved toward her bed she picked up her laptop and started watching youtube videos. she tried to deny her reality by hiding behind a computer screen and obsessing over all these youtubers and viners, she didnt realize her biggest mistake was not facing the truth. the truth was , she is a deppressed fourteen year old who was always judged and bullyed and was forced to be happy about something she was miserable about. should she continue being miserable or say goodbye to her misery and finally face her problems?

hi, my name is carter lee , im a fourteen year old jocky girl, i love working out and playing sports. i love listening to music and if you ask anyone, they know who i am, i love being in school because its fun i mean besides the boring classes and stuff i actually have fun, anyways i was born in texas and currently live in san agustin,texas and im in love with jc caylen which is a famous youtuber and kian lawley who is one of his bestfriends but also a famous youtuber. of course there is always a down side to the fancy life, my parents seprated when i was 12 and they have had problems along the way you know like any normal divorce, but the problems got worse and i started to get a little more affected ever since, so i became quiet and stopped playing sports and stuff and the number of friends i had went from all those so called "friends" to just a few, i began getting all this hate and of course i didnt let it affect me. why did everyone know hate on me ? this was something i often asked myself. 

this is were it all started, i was in dance practice, practicing my routine for the winter dance, as i was in the middle of my practice my phone rang and it was my aunt calling telling me the biggest news of all my mom was in a car accident, i felt my heart fall flat on the ground but that wasnt all she was in a coma, she was barely breathing and had to be shocked to get her heart beating properly, she was still in a coma after and was breathing farely well. i rushed as fast as possible to gather my things, my dance teacher drove me and as soon as i saw the front doors i opened the door and ran to front desk i asked for nikkie derozario the lady said she was in surgery because there was glass stuck in her body, i turned and sat in the dark corner as i was crying my eyes out. i watched the clock change , time passing hours after hours , and diffrent people walking in out but the worse was watching a ten  year old little girl get ripped out of her mothers arms, i ran towards her and grabed her i told her to sit with me ,she was crying into my over sized jacket as i ran my fingers thru her hair telling her everything will be okay, but i knew by the looks of it, it wasnt going to be what she expected . the nurse called " family of nikkie derozario " i stood up and walked towards the nurse i also glanced to my left to see my uncle walk towards her as well she said that she was going to be in  a coma and was estimated 6 to 8 months under, we both stood in shock there was so many questions running through my head and i felt my palms sweating i nervously looked at my uncle and saw the pain in his eyes, she walked away leaving us humbled. my uncle  asked me were i wanted to stay i siad my dad, my uncle siad we were going to my moms house to pack my things and he payed for my flight and aranged with my dad for me to  live with him. as i borded my flight the only thing i can think of was that little girl, i wonderd what happened and why she was in the hospital in the first place. as i got to the airport in la,california my dad picked me up as we drove to his aparment on venise beach he asked how i was ,and what i was feeling, i told him i was fine as soon as we got in his aparment he showed me my room, it had a great view of the beach, a master bathroom a california king sized bed with thick white sheets and  light sky blue walls i un packed and decorated a little to make it me. my dad told  me im going to be starting a new school called venice beach high and i was going to start in about a week, i made a few friends who lived around me and who went to the same school, my dad siad i can hang out for a little while , i met jaylen,carlos,cameron,and kendall. we went to the beach and cameron asked were i was from i told him " im african american - dominican but i was born in texas and they looked at me funny they asked "why were you born in texas" ? i replyed " my grandparents moved to texas , they got sick and my mom moved out there with my dad and i just came about". jaylen siad " i was born in texas to but we moved her cause my dad became a tattoo artist", i siad " my dad is a tattoo company  owner and an artist". a while later i went to the shop and picked up a sub went home and went to bed. i thought to myself this is just the start to a new begging.just a few short  weeks later, i started school my first day was amazing, i made alot of new friends and even meet a cute guy named ricky, i had great teachers who were really nice i liked venice beach high. i remember getting home that day, thinking about ricky i had his number and stuff but i was avoiding that dredly phone call or text, he probably didnt like me anyways. the next day, i walked into algebra 1 honors which i had with ricky, as the bell rang he sat next to me and asked for a pencil, i gave him one and as soon as i turnd around mrs.jefferson approached me and siad " detention for disrupting my class" i tried to explain that i was only giving ricky a pencil and she threw me and ricky out of class he asked me to leave with him and unhesitante i told him yes!, we jumped the gate and started walking threw various aparment buildings, he pointed to one that was on the third floor on the left he siad " that is my house" , we walked up the stairs and soon enought got to his front door he pulled out his keys and opened the door, it was dark and nobody was there, he offered me a glass of water and siad i could lay on his bed if i wanted to he directed me to his room and as soon as he opend the door some one knocked on his door i wondered who it was, he looked through the peep whole and ignored it they slid a paper under the door advertising the "spring break block party", as i sat on his bed i glanced around looking at all the bob marley posters and jordans alined on the wall.he approached me in a gental yet sudle way. i thought he was going to, but , he did, he leaned in ran his fingers through my hair and push back a few strandes behind my ear, he suddely kissed my neck, then my cheek,and then my lips he pushed me back so that i could lay down and he was on top of me, i stopped and told him to stop, he respected that and stopped, it was just a few short hours till my birthday, i was in the phone store in line to get the iphone six because my five s kept giving me problems, after i got the iphone six we headed to my dads shop i sat there setting up my phone as i glanced to the window i saw a group of friends from school i hoped ricky was there but he wasnt, my dad doing  a tattoo i wasnt going to do a fifteens party i wanted a piercing and a tattoo, that is what i did i got my nose, my belly piercing, and a tattoo on the top of my arm, it was a skull with beautiful flowers in the back,  the next day at night i was thrown  a suprise beach party it was great all my friends were there exept ricky. i texted him and got no response, after the party i got home and jumped in bed,i listiened to music until i fell asleep...........a few days later i bumped into him at the block party i saw him and started running toward him," hey ricky, i texted you a few days ago and i havent seen you in shool are you ok "?, " do i know you?" i was confusedmy heart was beating fast and my my palms sweating i was nervous what was going on, " asshole yes you do stop acting jerk". i walked away a emily a mutal friend of ours walked up to me and siad " ricky has a girlfriend he doesnt like you they have been going out for like 2 years know so, dont go down that route". i thought about what happen i didnt tell her because i didnt need more problems i called ricky that night he answered :

ricky: hello

me: hey guy who doesnt know me apparently 

ricky: my bad i didnt recognize you, my love 

me: you have a girl dont even 

ricky: you know that aint true remember the other day babe 

me: i know i thought about that 

ricky : im going to call you in the morning okay babe 

me: bye..........babe 

peep

i was so confused i didnt know what to beleive but i liked it so i went with it. he texted me in the morning while i worked out saying he saw me, we texted for hours and then he asked me out on a date, i siad yes, we went to costal blue a restaurant that was near his house. the  school was talking about ricky and i, i dont see why like he courterback the football team but im captain of cheer he i  is smart so am i he goes to all the partys i mean so do i. 

" i knew it he was lying he has a girl, my friend, rebecca i knew he was playing with me", i just woke up and went on instagram and saw pics of ric and rebecca i was so mad.