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another sad update lol

I'm really starting to hate not having a daddy again like for 9 or so months I haven't wanted one cuz of what my last one was like but he doesn't really seem to care much about me anymore so I guess I just don't really feel as attached? does that even make any sense? sorry guys it's like half 1 in the morning and I'm exhausted but yeah anyways like I just want a daddy who'll ask me if I've eaten or had any water or if I've brushed my teeth, I want a daddy who can tell me what to do throughout the day/night and praise me when I'm good, I want a daddy who can take care of me and talk to me and just fucking love me like why do I always end up around people who don't give two shits about me and don't fucking care what I do like why do all of these "cgs" just not fucking care? am I being a little wrong or something? am I not being good enough or mature enough or maybe I'm not being little enough? I just don't understand why a daddy can't just be my daddy and enjoy being my daddy without acting like I'm a burden or that it's a chore or something...I miss calling someone daddy...