MY GUARDIAN ANGEL

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*WARNING - THIS STORY CONTAINS SELF HARM , DEPRESSION AND DISORDERS*

 CHAPTER 1 

(IS IT MY FAULT ? IS IT MY FAULT TO BE BORN? DID I WISH TO BE BORN? DO I DESERVE THIS MISERABLE LIFE ? ) Y/N CRIES IN HER SLEEP. HER MOTHER HAD DIED LONG AGO FROM CANCER WHEN SHE WAS JUST 6 YEARS OLD. SHE WAS REALLY CLOSE TO HER MOTHER. HER DAD NEVER HAD TIME FOR HER. HE WAS ALWAYS BUSY WITH WORK AND WHEN THEY TALKED , THEY ARGUED . IT FELT LIKE HER FATHER NEVER REALLY UNDERSTOOD HER NO MATTER HOW HARD SHE TRIED TO TALK TO HIM. SHE WAS IN DEPRESSION FOR A LONG TIME AND TRIED TO REACH OUT TO HIM BUT HE JUST SHRUGGED IT OFF SAYING IT'S JUST A PHASE. SHE WAS A RATHER SHY KID AND PEOPLE BULLIED HER AT SCHOOL. ATLEAST THEY TALKED TO HER WHEN SHE WAS BULLIED BUT NOW , THEY STOPPED THAT TOO AND STRAIGHT UP IGNORED HER. IT FELT LIKE SHE NEVER EXISTED. YES, SHE HAD A FRIEND WHEN SHE WAS IN GRADE 2 WHO FINALLY UNDERSTOOD HER BUT JUST AS THEY WERE GETTING CLOSER , HER FRIEND DIED IN AN ACCIDENT.  IN GRADE 9 SHE HAD A CRUSH ON A GUY , BUT WHEN HE ENDED UP DATING SOMEONE POPULAR . IT FELT LIKE HER LIFE WAS A MESS , SHE WOULD BE SHOWN SOME RAY OF HOPE BUT  WHENEVER SHE GOT CLOSE TO SOMEONE THEY DISAPPEARED OUT OF HER LIFE.  SHE EVENTUALLY STARTED THINKING OF HERSELF AS SOME CURSE, A NEVER FORBIDDEN CURSE FOR THIS WORLD. SHE GREW UP WITHOUT ANY LOVE , CARE OR SUPPORT . SHE NEVER GOT TO ACT IMMATURE , COMMIT MISTAKES , GET SCOLDINGS ,PLAY WITH OTHER KIDS , OR EVEN TALK TO SOMEONE FOR MORE THAN 10 MINUTES . AFTER HER MOM DIED , SHE LIVED IN HER HOUSE ALONE , COOKED HERSELF , DID THE CHORES AND EVERYTHING ELSE AS HER FATHER RETURNED LATE AT NIGHT AND WENT STRAIGHT TO HIS ROOM AND GO EARLY IN THE MORNING . HER FATHER NEVER EVEN GOT HER ANY CARETAKER , ANY TOYS OR ANY FANCY SPOILINGS LIKE A FATHER'S PRINCESS .SHE GOT  MATURED AT A VERY YOUNG AND TENDER AGE AND WAS LIKE AN INVISIBLE ROBOT. THAT DAY , HER DAD CAME LATE AS USUAL .

Y/N - DAD, I'VE BEEN FEELING HORRIBLE DAY BY DAY. CAN'T YOU JUST TAKE A DAY OFF FOR ME ? IF NOT , JUST AN HOUR WOULD BE ENOUGH TO. I JUST WANNA SPEND TIME WITH YOU.

Y/N DAD -  Y/N , WE'VE BEEN THROUGH THIS BEFORE. I'M BUSY, GO BACK.

Y/N-  BUT DAD , I'M ALONE , ALL DAY. 

Y/N DAD- I DID SEND YOU TO SCHOOL . NOW THAT IS NOT MY PROBLEM THAT NO ONE LIKES YOU , INCLUDING ME. CAN'T YOU JUST DISAPPEAR ? THERE WOULD BE NO BURDEN IN MY LIFE THEN. I'M SURE NO ONE WOULD EVEN NOTICE.

Y/N- B-BUT

Y/N DAD- UGH , JUST GO AWAY YOU PEST

Y/N - DO YOU EVEN UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH THESE LITTLE THINGS YOU SAY AS A JOKE OR WHATEVER , HURTS ME ? I'M GETTING IGNORED EVERYDAY BY EVERYONE , DO YOU CARE , NO! I'M NOT ABLE TO RECEIVE ANY LOVE. DO YOU CARE ? NO !! DO YOU EVEN CARE ABOUT ME ? NO!!

Y/N DAD - NOW THAT IS NOT MY PROBLEM IF YOU CAN'T TAKE JOKES , IS IT ? PLUS , THE PEOPLE ARE JUST CHOOSING THEIR FRIENDS MAYBE. DID YOU EVER APPROACH ANYONE ? IF NOT , HOW DO YOU COMPLAIN ? 

Y/N - I'M JUST SHY DAD. AND YES , I DID TRY. BUT THEY JUST IGNORE ME. BUT HOW CAN I BLAME THEM ? MY OWN DAD DOESN'T UNDERSTAND. 

Y/N DAD- HOW CAN YOU JUST ASSUME THAT I DON'T UNDERSTAND ? I'M TRYING MY BEST TO UNDERSTAND YOU OK ? LIFE HAS JUST BEEN BUSY AFTER YOUR MOM LEFT.

Y/N - YOU KNOW WHY!!!! IT'S BECAUSE THIS IS THE LONGEST CONVERSATION WE HAVE EVER HAD. SO NOW YOU CAN ASSUME HOW MUCH YOU ACTUALLY TRY TO COME AND UNDERSTAND ME RIGHT ?

Y/N DAD- STOP OVERACTING !! WHEN WE USED TO BE YOUR AGE , WE NEVER TALKED BACK TO OUR PARENTS LIKE THAT. WE ALWAYS DID OUR OWN STUFF WITHOUT BEING SELFISH LIKE YOU ARE AND NEVER COMPLAINED. YOU SHOULD DO THE SAME . (HE GOES SAYING ALL THAT) 

Y/N - YES , MAYBE DAD WAS RIGHT. MAYBE I'M THE PROBLEM. I'M A BURDEN. BUT DON'T WORRY WORLD, I'LL GO. I'LL DISAPPEAR JUST LIKE YOU WANTED ME TO. 

(WITH THAT SHE GOES TO THE ROOFTOP AND......JUMPS)