the next day
im up. its 10:13. im gonna wake up my brother then make us breakfast.
i go to chris' room trying to be as quiet as i can. i wake up emery and bring him to the kitchen.
emery: what are we making
me: just some cereal because i dont really feel like making anything
emery: what kind
me: cinnamon toast crunch
emery: i like that one!
me: i know you do
emery: im still kinda tired
me: you can go to sleep on the couch. ill get you a blanket
emery: thats okay y/n
me: are you sure
emery: yea
i pour out the cereal into a medium sized bowl for me and emery. hes on his ipad probably watching cocomelon or something while im on my phone. i scroll through instagram and see all the girls with perfect lives. oh to be them. im over here with a shitty life, an abusive dad that i finally left, no mom, a little brother that barely knows whats happening, a dead sister, and depression. life cant get any better than this <3 living my best life. is being alive even worth it? is it worth it? i dont even know. i kick the thingy under the counter and put my face in my hands.
emery: are you okay
me: im so sorry
emery: for what
me: what i just did
emery: you know i can always forgive you! :)
me: gosh i love you
i give my brother a hug and start to cry. perfect timing to cry. matt woke up.
me: oh my gosh im sorry matt
matt: what? what happened? are you okay? y/n?
i go back into nicks room since its the closest and shut the door.
matt: emery what happened
emery: i dont know
i hear knocks at the door that wakes nick up.
nick slowly gets up since hes tired.
me: dont open it. i dont wanna talk to anyone
nick: who is it?
matt: its matt
nick: she doesn't wanna talk to anyone
he sighs and leaves.
when matt leaves his door nick asks me what happened
nick: what happened this time
me: id kill for a new life
nick: y/n, its okay. you have me. im always here for you
me: i know nick i just dont know why all this is happening to ME. i feel like killing myself because of this crappy life. whats the point if im not gonna be happy?
nick: so many people love you y/n. you know that. im pretty sure ive told you before. i love you so much. please dont think like that
me: im trying so hard to not end this all in the middle of the night. all my worries would be washed away. i cant with all of this anymore
nick: y/n please dont say those things. youre gonna make me cry and i just woke up
me: you all are probably so sick of me ranting to you guys
nick: no we arent. were glad that you feel comfortable enough to talk to us about these things
me: yeah whatever
matts pov
y/n and nick dont know that im still at the door. ive been listening to everything. im at tears. i told emery to go to my room so if y/n talked about anything like that he didnt have to hear it. i might not ever see y/n for another day. i love her so much. i dont know what i would do if she left us all. loml tbh. im gonna go back to my room just in case nick and y/n come out
me: hey emery
emery: what happened to you?
me: oh yeah uh something got in my eye
emery: oh...ok! that must be what happened to y/n! she wasnt crying!
me: oh yea, yea definitely
y/n's pov
im gonna go to my other friend's house. her name is elle. i love her so much. i tell her everything. she knows about every little detail that has happened while im staying at the triplets' house.
me: im gonna go to elle's house
nick: oh ill see you later. stay safe y/n
me: see you nick
i get to her house and i knock at the door. i hear footsteps coming from inside then the door unlocks.
elle: y/n! hi!
me: hi
i give her a hug and she returns it.
me: i miss coming here like every weekend
elle: i miss you coming over...so uh what happened to your da-
me: im not going there anymore
elle: right, you told me. oh uh come in. are you hungry? my mom made me breakfast and there are still some leftovers
me: no thanks i already ate
elle: lets go to my room
i follow her to her room and bump into her older sister. she reminded me of my sister. i tried to get away from her as fast as possible and thank goodness it worked.
me: your room has changed a whole lot since last year. i havent been here in so long because of my 'dad'
elle: remember that one sleepover where you threw up all over me because you ate too much
we laugh
me: dont bring that up ever again
we talk for hours before matt texts me
matt<3
matt: where are you
me: at elles house
elles name sounds a lot like my sisters name so its kinda hard to talk to her
matt: its been hours
me: sorry
me: im coming
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me: sorry elle matt wants me to go back
elle: when are you two gonna get together
me: im still waiting
elle: ok well tell me what happens. see you y/n. drive safe
me: thanks elle, bye
i give her a hug and leave her house then get in the car. i sigh then start to drive back.
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sorry for the short-ish chapter and i know i havent updated in like two months
lmk what you think of this story so far because i dont even know what to get out for you 😭
istg this chapter makes me wanna throw up its disgustingly bad
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