The Gay Princess

2- Shut up so i can kiss you

"It means he's in love with you"

A voice disrupted our sad gaze at each other and she quickly took her hand off my knee. "I can't find any bloody bourbon anywhere, you'd think we'd have tonnes given what trauma we go through on a daily basis, wow what did I walk in to? A funeral?" He laughed.

"Oh nothing Haz, just making sure she's good enough for you, and I can assure you picked the right girl" I said smiling like nothing happened. I could tell she was looking at me wondering what I'm doing. "You'll be great together with some good looking kids too" I joked. She looked at me confused.

"You got that right Na." He walked over to Lily wrapping his arms around her from behind the sofa and kissed her on the top her head. "Isn't that right Liana?" He smiled.

She doesn't let him call her Lily. That's odd. Why not? Im allowed to.

She was looking at me the entire time he was kissing her head lovingly. He walked back over the bourbon and poured some glasses for us. While his back was turned she mouthed, 'what are you doing' I just ignored her and grabbed the glass Harry handed me.

"I like this, my two favourite girls getting along, it's nice" hah if only he knew.

I smiled slightly and sipped my drink as my phone started ringing. I picked it up, it was Beatrice my cousin. I had secretly messaged her, for her to ring me back ASAP. She must have just got the message. She knows everything about me. About my sexuality and she knows about Lily.

"Ooooooo has Nana got a boyfriend" Oh Haz that's never gonna happen. I laughed "No Haz but trust me, I'm not gonna have a boyfriend any time soon." I smirked and glanced at Lily who was gazing at me. I remember that look, she used to do it whenever I did something she loved, like make her laugh. "No it's Bea"

"Ahh I haven't seen Bea in ages" He answered. I messaged her to call me later but she told me she's already on her way there. My eyes grew wider. "She's on her way here actually"

"Oh great I can introduce my her to Liana. You'll like her she's awesome, my favourite cousin"

We waited for her to arrive. It was mostly Harry talking with just me and Lily sneaking peeks at each other.

"Her Royal Highness Princess Beatrice of York" the guard said as she walked in looking like she'd ran all the way here. "Hey Nessie, fancy seeing you here" she kissed me on the cheeks and mouthed 'are you okay' I tilted my head towards Lily. She turned around, very suspiciously may I add and gasped.

"You okay Bea?" Harry asked and Lily sunk into her chair. "Er yeah just erm, wait is this your girlfriend Haz?" She noticed his arm around her. "Yeah Bea this is Liliana" Bea sat next to me and glared at her. "It's a pleasure to meet you your highness" "pleasure, I'm sure" she answered and I nudged her, I think she was confused as to how she was supposed to act. "Sorry, that was rude, I'm just so very protective over my little Harry" she obviously lied.

"Im older than you Bea" said mr oblivious to everything. He seriously hadn't noticed anything.

We all awkwardly chatted for a while until Bea had to leave me, she had to see her fiancé who was on his way home from work. "Good luck" she whispered in my ear as she left.

"I better go too, it's getting late" I said "really? Already Na?" Harry moaned. "Yeah sorry Haz." We stood up and hugged.

"Hey, erm Your Highness, do you think I could speak to you a moment" Lily asked "Huh? Oh yeah, sure, follow me, back in a sec Haz." I walked out the room and down the hall and she followed closely. I took her to my old room, I hadn't been here in ages.

I held the door open for her and closed behind her. "Soooo what did you wanna tell me?" I turned around and she kissed me.

Her soft plump lips attached to mine, her smooth hands cupping my cheeks. One of my hands moved to her neck and the other to her hair. My lips moving with hers in sync like a dance hers being the most dominant. Her head turned to deepen the kiss and her tongue licked my bottom lip seeking entrance. I gladly accepted.

She slowly moved me backwards until my back had hit the door. Her hands moved from my cheek down my body to my thighs and lifted me up so my legs were around her waist.
She walked me over to the bed and dropped me onto it hovering over me. The passionate kiss never broke, all our past nights together flooded my mind, how she looked, how she made me feel, how I loved... how I love her, still.

I realise it now, I never stopped loving her, I just had to break it off when I left Uni. If it wasn't for that I would still have her. But what about Harry, I can't do that to him, he's in love with her. He's still my brother, family should come first right? But I love Lily! No Family comes first.

I opened my eyes and turned my head to break the kiss, my hands left her hair just as my legs left her waist. I closed my eyes with my head still turned away. Her eyebrows furrowed as she backed away slightly. She was still hovering over me.

"I'm sorry" I whispered. "I can't"

"What?" She answered slightly frustrated.

"I can't do this to Harry, he's in love with you Lily. I can break his heart like that." She got off me and stood up starting to pace the room. "No no no, you don't get to do this again, you can't leave me again!" She raised her voice at me.

"I'm sorry Lily, but I'm not gonna leave, we will still see each other"
I tried to reassure her. "No that's even worse." She turned to me now with tears in her eyes. "You know, I fell out of love with Harry weeks ago, but things happened, it was the anniversary of his mother's, well I guess your mother's death, we were meeting my parents, his friends, you, Prince William, and there was just never a right time to bring it up. Then I find out that your his sister. I never got over you Nessie. You were my first love, the only person that I could be myself around, I lost my virginity to you, I was in love with you from the moment I met you. Then you left me and you broke my heart.

After a year I thought I finally got over you, But when I saw you today, I knew I still loved you, and I forgive you, I understand now why you broke up with me.

Did you really not feel what I felt in that kiss? Because I felt full, like everything I could ever want or need  was handed to me on a silver platter. And it was you. You made me feel complete and honestly really wet. Hah, God Nessie, you have no idea what you do to me. And I get you don't want to break Harry's heart, I get that, but in saving one broken heart your breaking two more.

I know I won't be able to deal with seeing you every day and not being able to kiss you. So I can't Nessie, and I won't. I guess your stuck with me whether you like it or not, and you better like it because I've been taking for a long time now and you've not said anything so I feel like you don't."

"Lily!" "What?" "Shut up so I can kiss you" and she shut up so I stood up and kissed her.