a journal for you.

mitsuya.

"for y/n,
the one that i love the most.

this journal is dedicated to you. i'm writing my thoughts and feelings about you and only you, here."

you touched the first page of the hard covered book that mitsuya called a journal.

it's like a diary for you. his diary about you and only you.

mana gave you this journal, saying that his brother would love it if you kept the journal with you.

you glanced on the upper right corner of the page, smiling bitterly to yourself.

the date, was the day where he confessed his feelings to you.

the day that you were confused, because how can someone as perfect as him fell for you?

you turned to another page, randomly choosing any other page.

"                                       26/5/xxxx.

i saw you crying again today. i wanted to talk to you, but i saw you cried. i can't help but to wonder what's going on. i wish that it was me who was sad instead of you. i wish you opened up to me too, but i can't force you, right? so i'll wait until you are comfortable enough to talk to me about it."

"he's so nice" you talked to yourself. you didn't know that he was there that day.

it's nothing big, honestly. you were just stressed out about few things.

"                               19/9/xxxx

you said that you liked me too. i'll write it down here just in case if this is a dream. i can't stop smiling. if this is a dream, i don't want to wake up. i promise i'll treat you right. "

"                                 1/1/xxxx

we went on a date again tonight. you look as gorgeous as ever, especially in the dress that i made for you. i never knew that my dress would look nice on someone, maybe it's you- you're the one who made my dress looked good."

"                              8/2/xxxx

i miss you, your smile and your laugh already. if i don't have this damned fever, i'll come to your place already"

"                                 7/5/xxxx

this headache is terrible. i didn't meant to cancel our plan for today, but this headache is killing me. it's been like this for few weeks. i'm so sorry, love."

headache? he never told you anything about it before. so that's why he didn't showed up that night.

you remember being so upset about it. you waited all night long for him, but he didn't showed up.

"                             22/7/xxxx

i'm scared. i started to forget some important dates. and did i wrote it before? that i started to cough up blood? i can't remember..."

your eyes are beginning to form tears. he wrote it before, about how he forgot the dates, and even the cough.

this is getting even tougher to read. you sighed, wiping the tears off of your face as you continue your reading.