Clear Skies

Felt Free

" Being unhappy brings the best of you in some certain aspect but being truly happy and free brings the best and worse of you genuinely."

It was already 11:54 pm when I suddenly woke up from a nightmare.

I dreamt of Skyler getting married with Catherine. The Catherine who bullied me when I was 10 until today.

When I was 12 she viciously took my books and threw it on the pool it was all my hand made books. The stories, the imagination,the characters and mostly my efforts was drowned to nothing.

"Augh! Once I made contact with Skyler I would definitely tell him about this awful dream of mine."

I tried to close my eyes and drank some milk but I just couldn't go back to sleep so I decided to go out.

I put on my jacket, socks & boots and so as my gloves and scarf with a big smile.

The excitement emerged . I'm craving for dessert for more than 2 months now and no pile of snow would stop me from having some of it's scrumptious taste.

The city light, the breeze , the street with it's quietness, no rushing people and the weather just made me truly happy and free. It's been a while since I went out for heart's desire.

And there it was the 24hrs convenient store.

" I'm here, I really am!"
my eyes bursted to tears as I enter the store.

The smell of coffee, the shelves were full of
tasty snacks and for so long I felt no guilt stoping me from eating.

I quickly grabbed some ice cream and neglected how low the temperature was.

Took some chocolates and indulged it's every bits. And the cinnamon was so good every bite of it felt like heaven.

"Oh how I wish this night won't end. How I wish Sky would be here too."
I ate more and bought some cute pens.

Since it was cold outside I thought of bringing more ice cream to my apartment.
Cookies and cream, ice cream cakes and some mochi were just right. I took them out and decided to go for a little more walk.

There was this park I've always wanted to go.
It's a 5 more minute walk but it would be all worth it.

I suddenly felt scared as I remembered I was roaming alone in the middle of the night.

I took my phone and pressed my recorder just incase something happens I would have an evidence. Overthinking I know.

The park looked so beautiful. The swing and slides were covered with snow, the fountain wasn't solid as ice but it was so cold. I sat down the swing and swinged myself to my heart's desire.

I felt a bit sleepy but still ate some ice cream. Such a crazy lady that's the phrase I could describe myself right now.

After eating I saw a big maple red tree.
It looks so beautiful. I couldn't help it so I straightly walk to get near it. It's red leaves just looks so good but it really won't take long as these leaves turns white and the tree would go bald.

I feel so free tonight. Tomorrow could be better than today but it could be also be worse. All I have to do is keep myself strong and positive no matter what.

I sat under the maple tree. Looking at it's leaves made me remember how me and Sky met.

"Moon please, moon!" somebody whispered again and again.

I was alone. No body wasn't there and the strangest thing is that voice was Sky's.

Am I hallucinating?
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