𝐻𝒾𝓈 𝒯𝓇𝓊𝓈𝓉 ~ 𝒥𝓀 𝐹𝐹

30 the truth 2

Y/n pov ...

I was standing in the balcony of our room ! ... 5 months .. 5 months passed and everything changed .... I recovered from my anxiety , depression , and nightmares..... I still go through to nightmares but it's not like that bad .. but i Don't have to worry as jungkook is always there .....

This 5 months were soo horrible ..... I looked at my wrists .. i tried several times to cut myself ... To hurt myself .. but everytime jungkook was there ... He came out of nowhere and saves me ....

I didn't know how this 5 months passed but seeing jungkook i realised that it was soo hard ... 

His face was always dull .... He has kinda dark circles were there ... And whenever i woke and see him , his eyes were red and swollen .... I also told him to not to do so but he never listened to me ....

Before myself i am worried for him .... I pray to god nothing happens to him ... Cause i Know i am not cable of him ... I really don't deserve him ...

He is too much for me ... But also whenever i look , stare in his eyes .. there is love and love everywhere .. but i see disappoint somewhere ... That I don't where it has came from but i know something is still there he wants ...

Suddenly i flinched as someone back hugged me .. but it was noone other then my lovely dovely husband , jungkook ....

His hands around my waist and his head on my shoulder.... I can feel his breath on my neck ....

I turned around ...and hugged him ... He hugged me back my head on his chest and his on my neck ....

Wind was slowly passing by making the weather soo much smooth and fresh .... It was rainy time .....

I broke the hug and looked at him ... He looked at me to ... We stare at each other ...i can see the love and care he has for me ... But then he kissed me .... I kissed him back ....

Our lips were just moving with each other only not harshment was there ... It was just a passionate kiss .... He broke the kiss and attached our forehead .... He spoke ... His voice was too smooth to ...

Jungkook : are you ready ?

I confusly asked him

Y/n : for what ? ...

Jk : for a child ...

My mind stop ... It was a random yet a life getting question .... Oh wait ohh yess that's why he was soo disappointed ... He wanted a child and i ....

Y/n : i am sorry ...
I looked down and Said ...

He hold my chin and peck my lips .... And made me look up ...

Jk : no no it's okay ! ... actually today your report came ..

I stare him ... Waiting for him to continue ...

Jk : i made the doctor check up our sexual things too ....

Y/n : humm ...

Jk : it's says if we will continue doing it we can make it cause .....

Y/n : cause ? ...

He look down .. i made him look up ... And raised my eyebrow.... Signalling him to speak ...

Jk : the doctor said .. my sperms aren't to strong ... It seems like my sperms whenever enter your vigna they got lost and weak ... He said that if you will continue doing it .. it may happen ....

Ohh now i got to know even if we do 15 or more rounds why i still didn't got pergent .....

Y/n : didn't you think we still got time to do it ...

Jk : y/n -

I put a finger on his lips ...

Y/n: shhh , let me complete ... Look jungkook this last 5 months were so horrible .... I know your thoughts .. you want a child .. but i think we still got time .... I just got recovered ... I am ready for it but still ... I think you need rest ! .... You need to be strong for it .... You understand what i am saying ? ....

Jk : i understand y/n .. but you know it's been two years of our marriage ... I have been dreaming about a child since our marriage ....

Y/n : you know i was also dreaming about it .. like i will have a family with you ! .... But still we got time jungkook ... I am ready we can do it right now .. i have no objections but i am worry about you ... You haven't slept properly since this 5 months ..  i saw you ... You have dull face ... You braly smile ..... You even got dark circles ....

I spoke but still i got to spoke ..

Y/n : jungkook ... I saw you are not that jungkook who was before i got Ill ... You are not that jungkook i used to see .... I think first we should be stable ... Then we can be parents .... I hope you are understanding ... And if you still want we can ....

Before i can finish ... He hug my tightly .... I also hugged him ....

He sniffed ... I broke the hug and looked at him ... He was crying ... I remove the tears with my hands ...

Y/n : why are you crying .....

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( Hiii guys ! .... Hope you like this chapter .... Didn't i wrote soo much ... 

You know i became an army in late 2020 ..... And then got info k-pop in 2021 ...when you became an army ...

For BTS i saw them giving butter , permission to dance ... This two where mini strater... But the proof looks like a hole damn meal ....

You don't know how much excited i am !!! .... You really don't know .... I am jumping around when they put concept photos .... Like 🤧🤧 .. why didn't i got to know them when they were debut ! ...then also i didn't regret becaming one now .. .

Like anyways ... So i talked to much sorry ...

Byee have a nice day !!

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