Feitan x reader

Chapter 8

I sat on a rock next to Machi. " Alright let's get down to business. Here's a full list of the Nostarade Family members. I got it from the official hunter website. These five are especially important. They are the full time body guards for the daughter of the boss. They also are the ones that captured Uvo. Uvo said that the chain user wasn't on this list. And sense we don't know what the chain user looks like we are going to need to find someone that does." Shalnark said. " That's the guys I killed. The one on the top left we can cross him off." Phinks said.

" Alright pair up. And look around. And keep a sharp eye on anyone on this list. We'll all meet back here at 10:00 pm got it. Let's go." Shalnark said. As we all stood up and began to walk behind him. " Wait Nobunaga isn't coming so who do I pair up with?" Machi asked Shalnark. " Huh oh I ca-" Feitan cut me off.

" You can just team up with Phinks. I will be with Y/n." Feitan said. Why did he just let Phinks go to have me? I don't care.
" Alright I guess..." I said walking next to Feitan. We began walking out the building and we began to walk around. " So where should we look first?" Feitan asked me. " I don't care. I guess anywhere. Maybe hotels or something." I said. He nodded as we began to walk through the city.

" Y/n..." Feitan asked me. " Yeah?" I answered back. " Ummm what is the feeling of when you have a strong emotion towards someone?" He asked me. " What kind of emotion?" I asked.
" Well when you see them they make you somewhat happy. You always want to be around them. And you can't help but admire and watch them." He said. " Hmmm I guess I would consider that love." I said smiling, turning towards him. " Love?" He asked.

" Mhm love is when you have a strong effection over somebody. It could be because they look pretty or you love their personality. Or it could be simply just spending time with them that you like." I said giving him a closed eye smile as if I just put on a mask. For some reason I felt as if I wanted to break down. Just knowing Feitan feels that way about somebody.

That may not be me...

" Oh I see. Well how do you tell or show somebody that you feel that way about them?" He asked me. " W-Well it could be in many ways. For example simply telling them " I love you." And just telling them how you feel. Or it could be just giving them gifts and also telling them..." I tell him.

" That sounds too hard and long to think about." He told me turning towards me.
" Is there well a faster way?" He asked me. I just looked at him and back to the ground.
" No. It is all you unless the other person tell you or has no interest in you. But you decide when's the right time." I said slightly smiling just to seem like I am in a decent mood.

" I see..." He said. That's when it just hit me.
" Wait have you never learned what love is?" I asked. He shook his head. " I never had that. I slightly heard but never had." He said.
" Me neither." I said looking at him smiling.
" I have only heard and seen it. I always get jealous that I have never had something like that. Well maybe I did when I was a baby probably from my mom. But it- I just don't remember." I said holding back my tears. I won't let them fall. I won't.

" Don't worry that's the same for me." He said putting a hand on my shoulder. I turned towards him and smiled as I let a tear fall down my cheek. I opened my eyes wide and quickly wiped it away. " Sorry let's keep on looking." I said wiping my eyes with my sleeve.

" N-No it's uh it's alright." He said. As if he was trying to think of something to help me. We were now in a small forest near here the city. " Y/n..." I heard him quietly say as he gently moved my hands away from my face. He slightly lifted my chin with his fingers. I looked at him with my glossy eyes. Why is he doing this? I-I don't mind at all but. Who does he really love?

That's when he did something unexpected...