Ryan's pov
I nervously gripped onto the steering wheel tightly,watching people leave the bar I was currently parked in front of.I recently quit drinking for the sake of my friends and my godson,Layne.but every now and again I have the urge to drink,and it's fucking suffocating.I hit the steering wheel,gritting my teeth and stopping any tears that are forming.I buried my face into my hands before removing them and leaning my head back,i exhaled and let a few tears slip.I got out of the parking lot of the bar and made my way back home,once I arrived I tried my best to quietly park the car.when I opened the front door however,I jumped when I saw Maddie(my best friend's wife and my other best friend)sitting on the couch.
"Mads,why are you awake?"I asked curiously."well,Layne had a nightmare and I couldn't fall back asleep."she began to explain,"so I'm watching some tv until I feel sleepy."I looked at the tv and saw friends was on."Nick?"she looked at me,"hey,don't judge:it's the only channel that plays friends at night."I couldn't help but to laugh.she scooted back and tapped on the couch cushion,probably wanting me to sit next to her.I kicked off my shoes and sat down next to her,watching Joey and Chandler desperately search for Ben."Ryan,"I looked at her,"it happened again,didn't it?"she asked.I quickly looked back at the tv,not saying a word.she sighed,"you know Ry not talking about it only makes it worse."she reminded me.
I sighed,letting some tears slip."it's just so hard...it's so fucking hard to fight it."I began to let my feelings slip,Maddie didn't say a word.Maddie was always the person everyone goes to when they didn't know what to do,because she always knew what to say."I-I'm scared Mads,I'm scared that one day I'm gonna crack and give in.A-And then when I do I...I'll never see you guys or Layne ever again."she then pulled me in for a hug,I froze for a moment before caving in and hugging her back."you're the strongest person ever Ryan,and I know you can fight this."she whispered confidently,we pulled away from the hug and I smiled at her.
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Fanfiction(This fic is connected to my Bam Margera fic series,if you haven't read it I recommend that you do because some chapters won't make sense to you)Ryan Dunn is struggling with a lot:between quitting alcohol and not knowing what to do with his life aft...
