How do you tell someone
that you arent always happy
how do you tell someone
whats going on in there
how do you tell someone
that the person yove been loving and covering for is the reason for the tears.
How do you tell your heart
that letting go might be best
when it doesnt want to hear.
How do you tell someone
that it was those green eyes,
those little legs,
that heart shaped speck,
those cute fingers,
that light fluffy curly hair
with the adorable dog, irritating mom and english dad
how do you tell someone
its that protective boy
with the piercing eyes and hidden trauma
that boy ive kept so close
that boy who brought me back to Him.
That boy that ive kept in my heart
Who has made a nest in its venacova
that boy who ive given myself to
that boy im thinking of now
That boy i told about my dad
that boy i shared my dog with.
Yes it was him. The boy who tought me about love. The boy who wasnt my first might also not be my last.
Yes it was that boy who put his hands all over.
Yes it was that boy who i trusted and gave too much of.
Yes it was that boy who broke me.
Not once but maybe even twice.
Yes it was him. My first REAL LOVE. It was him. All of it was him. The late nights. The intrusive thoughts. The tears. The happy moments. The movies. The giggles. The laughs. The teasing. The hugs and the times ill always remember....
yes its the boy i loved first!
