I think I can force myself to act like sundrop as in happy, not having suicidal thoughts almost daily, childish when I am around only my mom and dad. I remember telling my dad about the suicidal thoughts and I think he called me a lier and yelled at me. I have two other ways I can act, for example, I can act obsessed with FNAF and with suicidal thoughts and barely controllable laughter, that only happened after I had a dream about helping Bill Cipher from gravity falls and when I woke up, for less then a fourth of a second, saw a yellow triangle. I also can just act tired and sad.
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