Truly Me

~The Only Chapter~

Dedicated to @Contests and Challenges and newlywrittenbooks
James had always wanted to dress in female clothes but in the village he lived in, even though a lot of people still do it, it was frowned upon by many. A male wearing female clothes.

His father will castrate him and he still needed the man to finish his education. His mother will send him to mental asylum, he wasn't ready. His friends might not support him and leave.

The only thing that James wanted, he would never get.

He would never truly be himself.

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James hasn't even come out as gay to his parents and he already knows that he would be disowned by the amount of hate his parents had for the LGBT+ community. "They deserve to be burnt on a stake". His father had once said, you can only imagine what it's like for James. He's so back into the closet; his butt is freezing in Narnia, but who cares. He could deal with a little cold.

James couldn't wait to be done with High school and be off to college somewhere very faraway and never come back. He might find a nice boyfriend and get married and adopted one or two children but sadly, they would never know their grandparents.

James would be done with high school in a two weeks and then he would be off to college, dressing as he wants and living as he wants.

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Today was James' graduation, tomorrow he would be leaving for the city and hopefully never come back. He had already lied to his parents saying that the school wanted them over for the summer to help them cope with college life. His bags were packed two weeks ago. He was ready to leave.

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James has been in college two weeks and has bought a few feminine cloths but sadly he is still without a boyfriend. He has yet to wear the cloths he bought for fear his parents or one person from his small village might see and recognize him. He was also afraid of bullies. He knows bullies are not only in high school but in colleges also. He didn't think he could handle it.

One day, James made up his mind to wear the clothes he bought. He didn't want to be afraid again.

James was not that muscular but he wasn't a twink either. He was about 5'9 tall and had a gorgeous butt. It was round and firm or so James couldn't from the amount of times he had grabbed it will looking at the mirror.

He looked beautiful in the clothes, even his roommate had said so and he was a straight man. It gave him a bit of confidence to out of his room and almost immediately come back, but he held himself. With head held high, shoulder squared and ass a little pushed out, he walked like a shy diva out of his hostel and into his college gates.

He attracted a lot of attention with many guys doing a cat-whistle as he walked passed them. Even his college professor couldn't get his eyes off James. And for once, James felt like he had accomplished something and he felt Truly himself.

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A few months passed and his parents wanted him back home because he had brought up one excuse or the other to avoid seeing them. Now he couldn't resist them much longer as his father threatened to cut his funds if he doesn't get back home. He left his feminine clothes at his hostel and put on a pair of blue jeans and black shirt before leaving for the bus station.

While waiting for his bus, he sat on one of the empty chairs when a drop-dead handsome man in a black suit sat beside him. His delicious scent wafting into James's nose and he almost drooled when the handsome man spoke to him, asking him for his name.

They exchanged numbers as James was quite dazzled by the man before James's bus came to bring back to his old home. He and the man texted all the way there and James felt like he was on cloud nine. He knew for sure that was crush at first sight.

When he got home, he was hit with the nostalgic feeling and scent of his parents' home. His mother gave him a hug which he knew he wouldn't ever receive if she knew who he really was. His father gave him a grunt of approval which he wouldn't have heard if his father knew of his sexual orientation.

All through the holiday, James texted and called with the man he met at the bus station. James found out his name. Joseph. When it was time for James to go back to College, he still didn't tell his parents about his orientation. He still needed their money to get through College.

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James and Joseph started dating three months later and they could obviously see forever in each other. He wanted to tell his parents but he couldn't. Joseph understood that.

He didn't want to depend on Joseph for everything, so he got a job and his pay was good. His plan was too save enough money to cut off from his parents totally and so far it was going great.

One day, his parents called him back home urgently because his father was sick. James ran to the bus station with his flip flops . When he got there, he saw his father sitting cross legged on the sofa and his mother's teary eyed. He asked why and he was shown a couple of pictures where he was dressed like a female. James knew he would be disowned but not after his father had beaten the shit out of him and pushed him out of the house. He called Joseph and they both left his small town without looking back.

A few years later, James graduated from College and got a job at Joseph's company, they got married. And at their wedding, while recitating their vows, James said, "Thank you for helping me be TRULY ME".