The Broken Girl ✓~Completed~

Amber's pov

I was soo hurt by Sandra's words .
*She's not my girl we're just hanging out*.these words kept playing in my mind.i was disturbed by phone ringing I opened my phone to see my mom calling.i was surprised yet angry she didn't answer my calls it's been 5 months.i answered the phone.ohh wow the one and only Gloria decided to call me after so many months.sorry honey I couldn't tell you and I don't know how to tell you.soo go find a room so I can tell you my mom said in a serious tone . honey I love you so much I didn't answer your calls because I didn't want to tell you what's going on trust me baby I'm protecting you.
Nooo!!! You're not mom I haven't done anything wrong but then you decide to ignore me .
I know honey but please be patient you're still young it will be a burden.
Noo!!! Mom I'm an adult I can handle anything I'm willing to take the burden please tell me what is wrong.
Honey your.... your... your father Is getting worse he's dying Amber!!
You have to come home for a while.
Wha....wha...what!! I said losing my breath.
Honey breath she said.i couldn't breathe I was starting to have a panic attack.honey see why I didn't tell you I didn't want you to have these panics attack.i rushed to my closet to go get my pills.mo...mo..mom I can't breathe.
Honey try calming down please.i felt my heart hurt,my throat hurting due to the crying.everything started to be blurry.next thing I felt my body becoming weak.everything became black.
30 minutes later

Is she going to be okay doctor I heard Skyler talking in a worried note. Yes miss she's gonna be okay but there's something I need to tell her so can you all give us some privacy.she's not okay and you're asking us to give privacy Alessandra shouted.come on lessa lets go get you something to eat.
They all went out. I opened my eyes to see the doctor looking at me.with a worried look .what is it doctor??
Mam have you been taking care of your heart.ever since I had an accident doctor Davenport have been taking care of me giving me everything I need.ummm yeah doctor I have and it's been long since I cutted myself.what about overdosing pills???
Yeah that also I said rolling my eyes.
You're lying Amber you haven't stopped.okay I didn't overdose this week. Okay I wanna tell you something Amber he said in a sad tone.yeah what's upp he signed.
You have a heart failure Amber.
And a GAD.wha...what!!!!! I thought I was healing but I'm getting worse.
Heyy doc what's a GAD?? It is a generalized anxiety disorder is marked by excessive, exaggerated anxiety and worry about everyday life
Events for no obvious reasons.for example having difficulty in working,
Sleeping,socailazing or enjoying themselves as a result of their worries
And I'm suspecting that you might also have a panic disorder.Don't you think it's a bit too much doc??yes
Amber I also never seen somebody having all this things.bit you have to tell your friends and family. I can arrange a therapist.nooo need I can handle my self okay!!!Ohhh and if you tell them I will do something bad to you too okay doc!!! But ambe... didn't you hear me I asked inturupting him.okay fine Amber I won't tell them but you should stop suffering alone it will kill you more.well I think it better if I don't tell them.whay will they do anyways tell me it will be okay and it they understand.it's better if I just keep hiding my feelings.smiling works for me doc.see you later okay love you.i saw everybody waiting for me they were all stressed.amd I hated that. Heyyy guys I said smiling.ooh my good Amber you scared all of us!! Skyler said hugging me.heyy sky your breaking my bones I said suffering from breathing.ooh sorry how are you feeling?? she asked me.i'm night now okay I said trying so damn hard to not break apart.are you sure Alessandra asked.yesss I'm okayyy I said laughing.okay we reached to my house I excused myself I went to my bathroom locked the door.i played zevia's song on my speaker so that they can't hear me crying.i went to my shower the warm water flowing on my body.i started crying soo damn hard.my throat was now painful and I was now empty I didn't have tears anymore.soo I sat down while my heart breaking into million pieces.
I was now done bathing I went to my closet to find an outfit.
(Lazy to describe the outfit)

I started packing up my clothes course tomorrow I'm to visit my parents.not ready to see my dad lying on the bed suffering.bit I have to I have no choice
I went downstairs since I was done packing to only find Skyler watching.
Heyy where is everyone??
They said they have to go to work Ohhh and Alessandra told me to tell you she was sorry for the words she said.ooh okeyy tomorrow I'm leaving.
Where are you going munchkin??
I'm going to visit my parents I miss them.ooh okay heyyy Amby. Yess!!! darling I said.can my brother come live with us for few months.ooh okay no problem.thanksyyyyy boo!!! I'm going to tell Kate that I won't be here for some days I will be back.byee Hun!!byeee babe!!I said.