Oxygen || Leonardo DiCarpio

Chapter 33: The Best Day I've Had in a Long Time

Originally Published: June 10, 2022

I smiled widely as I pushed Sebastian in our baby swing on the play set in the backyard. He kept giggling and smiling widely as I pushed him from the front.

"Are you having fun," I asked, which he merely responded with more giggles.

"Hey," Leo spoke up, Felix nestled in his arms as he moved his little hands.

"Hey," I echoed, Sebastian still making excited noises.

"I think it's time for Felix to eat again."

"Okay, can you push Sebastian while I do this?"

"Yeah." Sebastian stared at us, since I had stopped moving the swing, carefully taking Felix into my arms. "Mommy! Swing!"

"I'm going to swing you for awhile while Mommy takes care of Felix," Leo told him, touching the bar in front of him to get him moving again.

"Mommy!" Sebastian was holding out his hands as I walked over to our wooden, two person swing, breastfeeding Felix once I was situated. "Mommy!"

I winced at how our oldest son was calling for me, able to already see the big tears welling up in his eyes. Ever since I had brought Felix home, Sebastian had been extra clingy with me, never leaving my side. He had recently started walking too, which meant it was easier for him to follow me. I sighed sadly at how he was now crying loudly, Leo trying to soothe him, but it just wasn't working. He even offered his favorite blue pacifier, but he hit it on the ground.

"Your brother doesn't like all the attention I'm giving you," I spoke to Felix, whose eyes were already half closed since his tummy was getting full. "I feel bad that he cries whenever I leave him. I love spending time with both of you. Come on, stay awake just a little longer. I need to burp you before you go to sleep." I carefully lifted him up, since he was finished, patting his back extra gently. After a couple of burps and traces of spit up, that thankfully got on the ground instead of my shirt for once, he was fast asleep. I kissed his forehead before bringing him over to Leo, Sebastian still sniffling with tears in his eyes.

"Mommy," he exclaimed, reaching up for me, since he was now on the grass.

"I'll always be back for you," I promised, lifting him to my hip as he put his fingers in his mouth. "I don't think he's handling the attention we're giving Felix very well."

"Yeah, me either. I'm not sure what to do about it though. He doesn't want to be with me much," Leo pointed out.

"Yeah, I know. Why don't you take Felix inside so he can sleep better? I can spend some more time with Sebastian on the swing."

"Alright. Hey, I wanted to tell you... I have a new movie coming up, and I told them I was only thinking about the role, because I didn't want to abandon you. I think the filming is here, but then it's in Canada too."

"Of course I'm not going to keep you from doing it. I mean, making movies is still your career."

"Yeah, I still love it more than anything, but I don't want you to be all alone with the boys."

"Honestly, Leo, I will miss you like crazy, but I would hate myself if I kept you from doing what you love."

"Yeah, but you haven't even had time for directing."

I slightly laughed as I shook my head. "Maybe one day I will direct, but I've come to love being a stay at home mom, no matter how much I complain at times."

"You're the best mom in the world."

"You better not let your mom hear you say that."

He laughed out loud before getting quiet, so he wouldn't wake Felix. "Anyway, the movie is about Howard Hughes' life, and it's pretty demanding. It deals with the mental illness he had, and I want to get it just right."