Feminine (Elle Argent's full story)

Chapter 1: Little boy

I've always felt different. Not because of how I looked or acted or anything like that, because of how I felt inside. I was born in 2005 on the 4th of May and my assigned gender was male. Something always felt odd about that last one, I would look at girls wearing dresses and skirts and think 'why can't that be me?' And I would feel very uncomfortable if I ever had to get changed in the same room as boys and honestly I felt extremely trapped. I started feeling like a girl in 2011 when I was only 6. I always tried to make my voice higher and I would stuff my shirt with socks to make it look like I had breasts and I would wear my mom's skirts and dresses when she wasn't looking. Then, if I was ever going out with my family I would sneak into my mom's room and put a bit of foundation on my face and rub vasaline over my lips to make it look like I was wearing lip gloss. One night in 2012 I had an idea, I would grow my hair out to make me look feminine. Obviously this took MONTHS to actually make progress and my mom was getting very suspicious when I kept declining her offers to get a haircut. I had to cut it after a year when men kept thinking I was a girl in the toilets and even followed me out to speak to my mom about it. I was a bit socially awkward and was not fond of these interactions with strangers in any way, but what my mom shouldn't see was that I was over the moon that people could think I was a girl! She just confused the distress of random people talking to me and taking me to my mom for me being uncomfortable being called a girl. Bear in mind, I had no idea what being trans was or that this feeling was natural so I felt completely weird and abnormal. I never considered talking to my mom because I thought that I would just grow out of it. Spoiler alert: I didn't. Hi I'm Elle and this is my story