It was around midnight when we got back to the house from disney. the kids were passed out in the car ride home so cameron helped me bring them inside the house. "hey cam you can sleep over if you want tonight. its late for you to be driving home by yourself." i said while yawning. i heard him laughing. "whats so funny Dallas?" he looked over at me now. "its funny how you told me its late for me to be driving home by myself as if you are afraid that I'm too tired to drive.it looks like you are the one tired." he came over to me took my hand. i didn't even bother asking where we were going since I'm way to tired to ask. He lead me upstairs into my room. i went and grabbed my pajamas and changed into them.
We hopped into bed. i was laying on myself when i felt cameron pull me closer to him. he kissed my forehead. " goodnight princess. i love you." i turned over to now face him. i kissed him then said " i love you too." this night we fell asleep peacefully.
Today cam and i decided that we should start to move some of his stuff into my house. Sara offered to watch the kids since cam and i will be driving back and forth a lot plus him and i had to pack a lot of his things.
It was around 8pm when cam and i called quits on bringing things to my i mean our house. I saw cameron picking up Luke and started to play with him but luke looked like he was going to fall asleep any minute. i smiled at them then headed into the kitchen.
I was glad that my family was finally coming back into place. I went into the medicine cabinet and grabbed my meds that i had to take now.. once i took them i went to sit down near the counter. i started to think about things that happened when cameron wasn't in my life... its never a good thing.
"chloe. chloeee omg CHLOE!!!" cameron started to yell. i snapped out of my daze.
"huh?" i replied back to him. he looked at me worried.
"are you alright? you were really zoned out." he asked me as he walked over and sat next to me.
"yeah i think ill be alright" i sighed.
"do you want to talk about it?" i quickly shook my head no. he looked like he was about to get angry but he stopped himself. great.. the same old cameron i use to know. the one that gets mad at me for no apparent reason at all. Like why can't i have my space.. maybe this whole thing was a bad idea. i don't know maybe its the depression pills kicking in. after having luke and cameron leaving me about a year or so ago i had full depression and i had to take care of the kids.
i guess i zoned out again because cameron shook me out of my daze. "chloe.. I'm really worried about you. one minute you seem okay and happy but the next minute you are shutting the world out. please talk to me" i just stared at him with a blank expression on my face.
"please chloe say something.." he pleaded to me with a really sad/ scared look.
"cameron.. there is some things you don't know about me... i don't know if you can handle it." i slowly said to him.
"chloe baby if it means keeping you forever then i can handle anything. please just tell me. I'm really worried" i nodded my head. i knew i would regret explaining it all to him. here i go...
