Denied, not rejected

Chapter 35

1 week later

       It has been a week since Kyle was put into the position and on one could say something about his leadership in the pack. He was great and the pack is clearly continue to prosper and grow as one.

      I was happy about everything but I can't help but feel...useless on the matter. I still feel like I'm being a leach into their relationship and I'm fucking frustrated. Sexually frustrated at that.

       I've been sleeping in my own room. I still feel like I'm not accepter or whatever. No, they did try their best to convince me to sleep in their room with them but still I can't help but feel like I was out.

       I'm sexually frustrated. I don't know what's happening but maybe it's just this damn hormones that's starting to be uncontrollable.

       The desire to have them around me, whimpering as if they wanted me to do something. It's just growing yet I can't make a move to get closer to them. Maybe because I just got used of the setting before where we don't interact with each other.

       "D-Daddy?" I look around and starts to move my hands, trying to locate the owner of the voice. A smile lifted up on my face when my hands are grabbed and gently place on his cheeks.

       "How are you kitten? Did Kyle left you alone again while you're sleeping?" I gently pulled him closer as he got on the bed. He lay on my chest.

       "Yeah, but I get it though. He's stressing out and also frustrated. B-But everything would be fine I-If you can just sleep in our room? O-Or us in here? We just wanted to sleep with you," I was in pain when I heard his voice filled with different mixture of emotions.

       I wanted to sleep with them as well. But the desire to do sexual activity with them, it's just damn strong and I'm afraid I can't help myself to do it with them.

       Sex is common to mates, mating that is. Sex is required to complete the mating process and that is normal. But I have just realized something that prevent me from doing that to them.

      Firstly, I am now a human. I won't...I think I won't be able to satisfy them that much because werewolves have high stamina and could do it for hours and hours.

       Secondly and lastly, the marking. When two mates marks each other, if one died, the other will follow after a couple of days, months, even years.

       I know the last one doesn't make sense but...human only have low life span. I, myself know that I am going to die anything. It could be now, tomorrow, after months, or even years. And if I happen to die and already mated with them, they are going to follow as well and I can't let that happen.

      Werewolves lives for a minimum of a thousand of years and humans have less than a hundred or so. I feel like I'm dragging them into a grave with me and that scared the shit out of me.

      Instead of acting upon my urges and desires, I always thinks about what would happen if I complete the mating with them and somehow died after a year, they'll be in pain and die too.

       "W-Was it because of me that you don't want to sleep with us? D-Does the rejection s-s–" before he could even do anything, I found his face and caress his chest. My heart was beating so fast.

       After a second, I slam my lips on his, hard and rough. I heard him moaning as I do so. He immediately opened up his mouth and I let my tongue dominate his.

       I got my hand now under his shirt. I gently pinch his nipple when I found them. He moaned at it. I could feel myself starting to feel the heat.
    
        It didn't take long before I force myself to stop what I was doing. We were breathing fast, gasping for air, trying to satisfy our lungs.