another me

tw/ did, depression, sh, heavy torture, blood

!! english isn't my first language!!

he was sitting in the corner of his room, shaking like leaves on the tree when the wind blow them. he had been always like this, crying and shaking in his dark room. he locked himself, he detached himself from the outside, from his family, friends and his "boyfriend". they weren't together yet.

the boy curled up in the darkness and sobbed, the hot tears ran down his face faster than your heartbeat. he, minnie was always like this, he was depressed and struggled with anxiety and bipolar disorder. he couldn't control his emotions and hated himself because of it and because how ugly he was. he thought he's just a burden to everyone, even to his own parents, but little did he know, their parents loved him more than anything.

he wasn't like the others, he wasn't that happy or talkative. he didn't want company, he hated every human from the bottom of his heart. his thoughts were always around his beautiful crush and the solutions how he can protect him from himself. 

when he was fine he called himself minho, but when he was aggressive and dangerous he called himself lee know. you might be wondering what am i talking about.. well he has more personalities, exactly three;

minnie: a soft, fragile, depressed boy

minho: a completly normal, like the others who love to flirt with his crush

lee know: the psychopath, completly insane boy who was known by one and only lee minho, nobody else..

there he was, a poor, ruined boy still crying in his room, until someone knocked on his door.

"minnie, i know you're here, please open the door"

he heard the oh well known soft voice, jisung's voice..

he refused to open the door, he didn't want to hurt the boy on the other side of the door so he stayed silent.

"minnie, please, i want to talk to you, i need you min.."

the older boy's heart ached when he heard the little boy's sniffels.

"jisung, i don't think minho wants to talk right now, i'm sorry"

"i-it's o-okay mrs. lee, just tell him i was here"

he heard the conversation between his mother and his crush and immediately bursted the door open.

"nO! i-i'm here" he mummbled.

"minnie" the young boy immediately throw himself into older boy's arm and hugged the boy even tighter.

"i missed you" he cried out and hugged the boy even tighter

"ssh, it's okay jis, i'm here, don't cry, instead tell minnie what happened, hmm?" he said softly and lead him into his room.

they sat down on the bed and jisung immediately scooted closer to him.

"so, what happened sungie?" minnie asked and looked at the boy's fragile body and his tear-soaked cheeks, then looked into jisung's eyes and the little boy began to cry again.

"m-my mom.." he cried out.

"she insulted me again, she said i shouldn't be alive and everyone will be pleased if i'd just kill myself.." he sobbed.

"minnie i can't take it anymore.. please let me live with you here.. i don't want to be near my mum anymore"

minnie was shocked and felt so bad for the boy, in his opinion jisung doesn't deserve this, he's the most purest and precious boy in this world and he deserves all of the love and attention, he deserves everything, but he won't let himself hurt jisung..