Two years have past since I last saw you. Two years since last felt the touch of your skin. Two years since I last heard the breeze gently carrying your voice to me.
But you never came back from that journey, like you promised you would.
Every day, I sit atop the Jade Chamber and look down at the very waves that took your life. The waves that stole you from me.
Every waking moment of the day is plagued by the emptiness that you left behind.
I walk down to the harbor every day, hoping , praying, that maybe, just maybe, you would be there. Hoping that it was all a bad dream, and that you're waiting for me to come greet me.
But, alas, death is not reversible. However much I wish I could, I cannot meet you again. At least not in this life.
Did you believe in reincarnation, my dear Beidou?
Just writing your name hurts. Pathetic, isn't it?
I'm the Tianquan and I can't even write a name without overwhelming grief spreading to every inch of my body.
There is so much I wish to discuss with you, so many topics to talk about. If only we had more time, if only I was the first one to die.
Maybe this is fate, maybe this is a punishment from Celestia. Either way you look at it, the only truth that remains is that you are gone.
The only way to escape it is to join you in the kingdom of death, if there even is such a thing.
The unbearable grief I feel is slowly driving me insane. I look for you in every person I meet, hoping that maybe reincarnation is real. But I have yet to find someone who closely resembles you. I suppose you're just so unique, huh?
Well, maybe it is real, maybe it's not. Either way, I wish to meet you again, if only for a minute.
Even if we don't meet, death is the only way to rid me of my sorrows.
And so I will join you tonight, my beloved Beidou. My sorrows and regret will be gone, and only my love for you will remain.
Two long, painful years will have passed, and I will finally be free.
Sincerely,
Ningguang
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My Final Wish || Beigguang
Fanfiction"Grief heals over time" is a phrase I've heard oh-so often, but it never seemed that way to me.
