Midnight Summer

Eighteen

"Look at you girl. I am so excited." Liza squeals. I grin at the screen like a fool as I watch my friend prepare for her date. She turns from adjusting her bra to look at me.
"You don't look so happy." she stares.
"I am."

"I mean I should be right but I don't know Liz. After this previous pressure, I feel exhausted. God knows what will happen when we go to Toronto." I sigh.
"Baby." she coos wary settling on her bed.

These last few days haven't been so bad especially after the interview but also not that easy. Most speculations have died down but I can't help but feel overwhelmed by seeing my self on the news or being discussed on TV. It is all new and so frustrating.

"I know how you are feeling babe but what people say don't matter now. He is your man. He loves you and you love him. The haters could go F themselves." Liza beams.
"Come on Ems. You should be happy right now because that man you have on your man is fine. He is wanted by many girls out here so you should be smiling and giving a middle finger to all the haters like you should." she empowers. I smile with an eye roll.

And that is what I love about her. She never ceases to change everything negative to positive.
"I am going to miss you babe." Liza smiles softly.
"Me too."

"Speaking of which, blue or green?" Liza raises up two dresses on the screen.
"Green. It compliments your eyes." She looks at it and nods.
"You are right. Green it is." She shuffles around her room for a second before returning back.

"I will leave you to it Liz. Enjoy your date."
"Oh I will babes."
"Send a kiss to Liam for me." Liza winks before she chuckles.
"I will. Take care babe."
"You too lovely."

I step off the bed to go look for Liam. I follow the sound of his guitar until I find him at the balcony strumming his guitar.
"Feeling creative tonight?" I smile up at him.
"Something like that." He stops playing smiling back.

"It is good." I settle beside him.
"It is for my new album." he sighs.
Silence lingers between us for a while before Liam takes my hand in his.

"It is going to be fine." he coaxes.
"Is it?" I stare up at him questioningly.
"Trust me on this." He squeezes my hand softly.

God knows I want to and sometimes I do but I can't help and think about how my life is going to change in a matter of hours.

Liam and I are moving to Toronto to his condo. I am officially moving in with my boyfriend in just a matter of hours. Honestly I am happy with the whole idea but I am also scared. It scares me because I know everything is going to change for the both of us.

The interview has worked for us positively but what will happen when something else happens. It all scares me so much.
"I see the cogs in your head Emma." Liam gazes.

"I can't promise that everything is going to be sugar from here. Some days it will be sour or much worse but it is one thing I will promise you."

"My love."

"And you should never forget that." Liam presses a chaste kiss to my lips.

"You are getting cold. Let's get inside." He helps me up.

                *******

I haven't gotten over my anxiety attack since we were attacked by the paparazzi at the airport. Apparently our arrival back in Toronto was a disaster. We spent thirty minutes fighting through the crowd of both paparazzi and fans.

I still feel headache from the too much noise. When our car halts infront of the building I guess Liam's condo is located, I sigh.
"Feeling better?" Liam asks.
"Just a little tired." I mutter.

Forty eight floors later, Liam swipes his card to the biometric of his condo door. I kind of expected what I see inside. It is beautiful. Lowkey soft colors of brown, grey and white decorate the room. It is spacious and cozy.

"It is amazing." I compliment.
"Do you like it?" Liam asks. I nod. His condo is difficult not to like and I haven't even seen the whole of it yet.
"I want to show you around." He leads me further to the modern kitchen, two spare bedrooms, his master bedroom, an indoor pool and a balcony that has the most amazing view.

"Do I want to know how much you spent on this?" I smile up at him.
"Probably not." he hugs me closer. For  seconds we stare into each other's eyes.

"I am so happy that you are here with me." He presses a soft kiss to my temple.
"I am lucky to be here with you."
"And I am lucky to have you." Liam grins.

We take a while at the balcony looking over the city view and enjoying each other's company.
"Your mom, she said we had to call her when we arrived." I remind him.
"I am sure she knows we arrived already." Liam rolls his eyes. I send him a stern look.

"Alright. I am going to call her." He huffs in defense walking back into the room. While Liam goes to call her mom, I remain at the balcony thinking about how I ended up here.
Four years back if a person would have asked me where I would see myself right now, I literally don't know.

Now as though I am not sure where it all ends, I am contented with what I have now. I am living my best life with the person I love the most in the world. What more could I ever want?

"Penny for your thoughts?" Liam hugs me from behind.
"I was thinking about how lucky I am to have the most handsome, kindest and most gentle man in this world." I reply.
"Someone feels a little bit too complimenty right now." he teases.

I nudge him with my elbows softly.
"Is complimenty even a word?" I frown. He shrugs with a giggle.
"Do you want to know something?" he asks. I stare into his eyes.
"I love you so much Emma, so much that sometimes it feels so overwhelming. You are the most beautiful person I have ever met and your presence in my life as my girlfriend makes it so extraordinary."

"I love you Liam." I whisper back with a grin.

Suddenly he pulls out his phone and plays a song.
"Wait, is that midnight summer?" I blurt out excited. He smiles. He knows.

Midnight summer, I wish it never ends

My smile brightens whenever I hear this song. It reminds me so much of him, of where everything started. A famous popstar and a girl sleeping in a bar, who just ever knew?

"Can I have this dance?" Liam holds out his hand for me. I take it immediately and we sway to the music. What better way to end a day in the hands of my boyfriend to the lyrics that will never leave our hearts.

I keep hoping the sun won't rise and the moon won't fall.
I still want you closer to me in my arms.

Midnight summer, I wish it never ends