The true me

How will it all end for me

The past few days I've not been going to school. I went back to school on the Wednesday and I just could not cope. I started getting letters saying that I was a loner and a geek. On my first day back I had already found 3 notes in my locker, 5 got handed to me when walking through the school and 2 got handed to me during class but when I say handed in class I mean thrown. What made it worse was the fact that I had nobody to go to, apart from mills and we didn't see that much of each other but she had offered to come and check up on me after school but I was such a state I didn't want her to see me.

Another thing - yeah you got it, dean dumped me . He got over me so easily, he's now seeing another girl called Taylor, and to be honest I can't get mad at her as she's so nice and pretty. She's not even popular she's actually a jock. Actually that's not a surprise, they probably go jogs together every morning at 6 when I'm just waking up.
Enough about them.
Right now I really don't know what to do with my life . I have one friend and that's Millie.
Here are some of the options I was thinking about.
1) run away !
2)create a new identity ?
3)move schools
4)be me
Ok so number 3 is the last thing I want to do but it is an option.
I think to start of I should try number 4 as it's the easiest option to go for, or is it?

So today's Monday I've missed 2 days of school after everybody found out and today for once I'm going to go to school as me, I like being the real me! Although I will still be wearing something nice.

So today I start by choosing my outfit I choose my white polo shirt with my blue ve-neck my white jeans and my uggs. I put my hair into a high ponytail and tie a blue ribbon on top of the bobble to hide it.
That's me done, I'm ready to go to school and for once I'm not going to school in some expensive clothes and a face covered in make up, for once I'm going to school as the girl I really am.
When I first walk into school I feel like a new kid I feel like I no nobody and nobody cares about me and for once it does not actually feel that bad.

At lunch I meet up with mills and her 2 friends Harriet and Toby, whom I guess are going to be my new friends now.

When I go home at the end of the day, I feel really good, I feel like I'm not keeping secrets and I feel like everything is going just how I wished it would be going.
For the rest of the week the same routine happened I met up with mills and Harriet and Toby and we became ready good friends.

I still have not talked to cath and for once I'm not missing her. I'm happy with how my life is and I want it to stay this way forever.

Natalie.x