Loving you is a losing game (abused Todoroki x Momo) On Hold

Chapter 9

Todoroki pov:
I make my way down to meet Yayorozu in front of the building and stop when I get a call from the devil himself, or in my case me dad.

I hang up just thinking in my head it's nothing, but he keeps calling back. I walk as fast as I can to get to the roof for some privacy. I messaged Yayorozu that I couldn't meet up and that it was family business. Once I sent that message I answered the phone.

"Hello?"

"Hey son of a bitch answer my fucking calls. Anyway it's about your sister Fuyumi.." classic come back but that last sentence sounded less cold hearted.

"What happened?" My hands started shaking and I started getting a sinking feeling.

"She was at school teaching a class when she fell and had a censure. They don't know the cause."

The blood left my face and I went pale. My bandages started gushing more blood to where they are now red and water clouded my vision. "How is she doing? Is she ok?"

"They say she's still passed out and in critical condition, but they said there's a chance at death." I dropped my phone and puked onto the roof's cement. Death, wow such a word but hearing it coming from someone talking about who you spent the early years of your life with could trigger you more then you know it. I grabbed a fists full of my shirt and started crying after I hung up the phone because what I don't need right now is home telling me I'm pathetic for being scared for my sister.

I didn't want to hear the voices telling me it should be me in that hospital bed so I put in one earphone and listened to whatever the hell was playing. Though the song matched my mood and how I was feeling perfectly. My inner thoughts have always told me I've wanted to die even though I don't know if that's actually how I feel. That's why I loved the son playing because it talked about switching places with someone by making a deal with god and so I'd really love to take my sisters place and take away her pain. The song playing was Running up that Hill: by Kate Bush. While I was listening to the song I played through all of my thoughts on what was wrong with me. The abuse. My fault. The eating disorder. My fault. Mom being in the hospital. My fault. Touya running away. My fault. My sisters censure. My fault. My brother not feeling safe in his own home. My fault. My depression. My fault. All of my friends troubles. My fault. My suicidal thoughts. My fault. Me being useless to the world. My fault. Me not being good enough. My fault. Touya dying. My fault.

I pulled out something that had worked a while back to hide my problems temporarily. Drugs. Well to be specific cocaine. I usually snort it so it will come into affect faster then just swallowing it. Then I take my antidepressant pills even though they never work. But, to my dismay instead of drugs an empty bag is in its place. I have run out so instead I pull out a pack of cigarettes I stole from my dads room and went unnoticed because he's a sloppy drunk who sleeps with his drool. Who also never goes into his room. I have a my flames so I don't even need a lighter.

I pop one into my mouth and light it up while the song changes to Jocelyn Flores: by XXXTENTACION. One puff. Two puff. Maybe three. How about four. Moving onto five. Now six. Inhale. Exhale.. Oh guess it's done the cig is now tiny. Onto the next and repeat. I smoked about five and am barley high ehh guess I'll just sit here and wait til my antidepressant pills kick in.

Yayorozu pov:
I was told be Asui or sui to invite everyone who came along to help save Bakugo from the League of Villains and went behind her back and ignored her advice. I got everyone to come so as I was waiting outside I got a text from Todoroki that he couldn't meet up because of family business so I told Asui and she said it's alright and that she would tell him later. She told us that she thought she didn't deserve to hang out with us which is completely untrue the opposite really so we reassured her we would take her advice from now on. We all hugged and made a pact to not upset each other again. I looked up and saw on the roof smoke! My first thought was 'Fire oh no!' But it didn't look like fire because there were pauses in between each smoke breeze so I figured it was just one of the teachers smoking. For students it's prohibited to smoke, take drugs, or drink alcohol. Though for teachers it is also against rules I assumed they had a reason and that this was a one time thing because I don't think they would try to get fired. Must need a little break.

Todoroki pov:
Before I got caught I walked back to my room feeling better because I don't even remember why I was angry. I hear knocks at my door. I would go out there and see who it is but I smell like cigarettes so I act asleep. I feel like if I say one word I with have a coughing fit and then the person out there would think I'm sick.

Yayorozu pov:
I was going to see if Todoroki was still awake to tell him what he didn't hear out there and wish him a good night so I just walked away in order to not wake him.

I walk up to my room, after I brush my teeth in the shared bathrooms located in the common area, I change into my pajamas then lay in bed letting my thought surround the boy who is a mystery to me. Todoroki. Some questions I would like to know is why he wears bandages on his arms, why he wears winter outfits all year even in summer, why doesn't he eat much, why does he look like he's in pain sometimes, and why is he always so cold towards people? Here are the answers I've come up with I'm guessing he wears bandages from training in class and overuse of his quirk, maybe his right side makes hime feel cold all the time though that doesn't explain his left side, maybe he is training himself for nights he can't eat after working late as a hero, maybe he's super dedicated and works a lot to where it hurts, maybe he was just born and raised with his cold personality.

I don't know but I'll worry about this in the morning. And so I closed my eyes and fell into a deep slumber.

(AN sorry it took me so long to update I was in Florida and had no time to write or type. Can someone please tell me how long the story is like the time it takes to read it? Thank you if you have suggestions please comment.