Shots Of Tragedy

.........Do Us Part

Karen's Pov

After I leave Jeremiah's room, I go back to my bedroom and I walk in and see David sleeping in the bed. I just stop and stare at him wondering how he can sleep when the mother of his child is dead. Maybe it's because he wasn't there moments before her car was smashed into by an asshole driver. Maybe it's because he wasn't the one that could have just let her stay at least a minute longer. Maybe it's because he didn't ride in the ambulance while the paramedics tried everything that they could to keep her alive. Maybe it's because Or perhaps it's simply because he didn't have sex with her and reject her the same day she died. 

I don't know the reason, but it still bothers me to see him sleeping so soundly. It's been a year since she died, but it's still fresh in my mind as if it happened yesterday. Sometimes seeing him like this makes me want to just grab a pillow and suffocate him, but I know that Jeremiah and Tahani  will be without their father and plus for one reason or another I still love his goofy ass.  

Which is why I don't exactly know why I'm on top of him with a gun pointed at his face waiting for him to get up. I don't even want him dead. I just want know that he feels something. 

Dave's Pov

I open my eyes to see a gun pointed at my face. 

"Good morning," Karen says wiping the tears that are streaming down her face. 

I stare in disbelief as she points the gun at me. 

"Good morning, what are you doing," I asked calmly not trying to show emotion. 

"I want to ask you something, and you better not lie to me," she answered. 

I nodded my head yes. 

"Do you not feel anything," she asked. 

"What do you mean," I replied confused. 

"You know what I'm talking about. You haven't shown a piece of emotion since she died and I want to know if you just don't give a fuck about her at all," she asked angrily. 

I stare in disbelief and confusion as my wife who one year ago was so angry and possessive after the threesome situation happened now has a gun pointed at me demanding to know if I feel sorrow and grief about the very woman that she was angry with. 

"Karen, of course I'm sad about Tam's death. Sure I'm angry at myself because I wasn't here that day to help in some way. I'm angry that I couldn't find the bastard that hit her and make him pay for killing her. I got so mad that after a while I had to put it at the back of my mind and act like it didn't happen so that I wouldn't go crazy. And plus I already messed up our marriage by sleeping with her again. I thought I would make it worse by crying about her death," I explained. 

She puts the gun down and sits there crying and sobbing. I sit up hugging her letting her cry into my chest. 

"Dave she wouldn't be dead right now if I had just let her stay a few more minutes or if I had just said yes and had sex with her," she cried. 

"It's all my fault. Now, Jeremiah won't even get to hug her or hear her voice because of me being jealous and possessive,"she continued. 

"Look at me Karen, it's my fault. If I didn't sleep with her again, then you wouldn't have even had to invite her to the house to confront her. I'm the one to blame here not you. I'm sorry for even letting it get to this point," I explained.

"Dave I need some time away," she said weakly. 

"Whatever you need," I replied not making this worse than it already is. I caused enough heartache for her.