I tried to get Elijah off my mind but I couldn't . I liked someone else and his name was Noah. I thought Noah was the one but I was wrong again .. Noah told me he liked me and he was a DL and I didn't want to mess with a DL anymore .. So I gave up I couldn't be happy when Me and Elijah started falling apart. Everytime Elijah would say a simple word to me I would be so happy and text him when I get home and I never any response back .. I felt he was giving me signs as to leave him alone ... So I did .. But I couldn't stop but think about him everytime .. I was so weak , heartbroken and I couldn't even eat for 3 days . I was tired all the time , I was losing sleep because of him .. I was always wondering what he was doing .. I remember seeing a quote and it was " We accept the love we think we deserve but not the actual love we deserve " I kept that in my head because it was so true I thought Elijah was the love I deserve but it wasn't .. it never was . I told Sasha and my groupchat everything they all told me I need to eat and get serious help cause they never see me like this . I remember one day Me and Elijah were both listening to music and a XXXTENTACION song came on and it was " I Don't Wanna Do This Anymore " and it became our favorite song ... I was listening to literally to our favorite part of the song ..
Months later , I got better and I wasn't thinking of him that MUCH .. I started focusing on myself a LOT I started loving myself more. I gave up on love and I started talking to my friends more cause I didn't want to lose another friendship . I started making more friends and my 1st period became fun because I made new friends and their name were Dino, Meriyah, Sam, and Sade. Sade reminded so much as a sister to me , Me and Sade relationship became unbreakable. Sasha and my groupchat were SO happy that I was getting better . I'm glad to say this but I'm actually happier now he isn't my life anymore .
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definition of a DL
Romancehi my name is camari ! this is a true story about me and this downlow boy :) hope you enjoy the book