*Kring Kring Kring*
The sounds of alarm clock wake me up.
I cry. As part of my daily routine.
I dreamed of him, again.
And still, it hurts.
My life's been like a broken diskette.
Waking up, then cry. Reminiscing, the cry. Eat, go to school, watch nonsense shows that I don't even understand, go to bed, then think of him and I'm like crying over and over again until fall asleep.
I try to move on, but I just can't. It's still him. And will always be him. :(
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I go to our kitchen to have some meal. My mom saw me.
"You okay?" she asked.
I shake my head as an answer.
"Honey, have a life. You're still young to be like that." My mom hug me as she says those words.
I can feel the sincerity to her voice. "I know mom, it's just that... Can I have my meal now?" I change the topic. I don't want to talk about this. Again.
"Sure you can. Eat well, honey." then she left. I know she senses that I don't want to entertain her words.
After I finished my meal, I take a bath and get ready for school. I don't mind fixing myself. After all, there's no use.
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On my way to school, I see a familiar face. I thought I was just seeing an illusion but I'm not.
IT'S HIM!
I guarantee it. It's him.
His eyes, his smell, and his laugh are still the same.
He's with someone else. :(
No! Let me rephrase that.
He's HAPPY with somebody else.
But I don't care with that effin girl. I run fast toward him and hold his arm.
"D-Drew"
He look at me. "Steel", he says, cold as ice.
"Steel? Just Steel? You used to call me Lili. Why? What happened on you? On us? I thought our love is forever? Then why? You promised me. You promised." My tears peaking on my eyes as I say those words.
Hold it, Alison. Hold those fvcking tears of yours.
"Stop it, Alison Steel! It's been a year since I broke up with you. Can't you just move on? Seriously. I know my mistakes. I know it. I had loved you and I just fall out of it. I'm sorry, okay? Please, I'm begging you Alison Steel, leave me alone." he says.
Tears, I can't hold you any longer.
"You hate me that much to beg me to leave you, huh? You are so unfair." I run as fast as I can. I don't want to be here. It hurts. Too much. His words, they're like knives stabbing my heart. The pain that I feel inside. Gosh, I want to di—
"BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP! BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!"
