I watched Stell pick out some stuff for his house. Nung natapos na kami ay iniuwi ko na siya. Worth it ba talaga na pilitin kong manatili siya sa akin kahit ilang beses ko na siyang sinaktan?
But the point of changing is to make things right. I changed myself to be better for him. He loved the weakest version of me and I want him to be loved by the best me and no one else but the best me I can ever give to him.
I saw a notification on my phone so I opened it up.
From:Stell
Hey. Thanks pala sa dinner kahit hindi ako masyadong nabusog but it was fine. Also...you didn't need to pay for my groceries. Salamat sa lahat ng binigay mo sa akin ngayong gabi, Pablo. Salamat talaga...
I smiled as I thought of a reply.
To:Stell
Always a pleasure, Vester. Goodnight and don't forget to drink some milk.
I wanted to say more but I couldn't think of anything else. Maybe the universe is telling me to stop and just sleep.
Tomorrow would be another day of course.
Nung sumunod na araw ay naisipan kong dumalaw kay Stell. I planned on taking him to his shop. I realized that he was still sleepy since he was struggling to stand straight.
"Stell, are you okay?"
"Ha? Bakit ang aga mo?" He asked as he pulled himself up. "Oo, hindi lang ako nakatulog ng maayos."
"Bakit?" I asked. "You were probably thinking of me."
"Ang kapal talaga oh." Sabi niya at inirapan ako. "Bakit ka nga pala andito?"
"I just wanted to take you to work."
He looked at me but just said no. Was he suddenly avoiding me now?
"Hindi kita iniiwasan, okay? Ang ginagawa ko ay pupunta sa barangay para makuha ang documents ko."
"What documents?" I asked as we walked together.
"Important ones." Sagot nito.
After getting his stuff, he said wala naman daw siyang balak buksan ang shop and ayaw daw muna niya.
We just hung out the whole day, went to play some arcade games and do stuff together. I want him back so bad, if the universe gives me a chance then maybe...just maybe things will be simpler.
I'm not getting any younger. I'd rather settle down with him or don't settle down at all.
It's him versus every other person in the world. Besides, they'll never love him like I do. He's too much of a precious bean to be hurt again.
But...am I really the one he wants?
Sinasayang ko lang ba ang sarili ko para mapansin niya ako?
What am I complaining about? Sinayang na ni Stell ang mga panahon para lang makasama ako, ngayon pa ba ako hahanap ng paraan para sumuko?
When you love deeply, truly, madly...you know you can't get out. I know hindi sanay si Pablo na suyuin ako ng ganito katagal. But I don't want to rush things. May mga oras at araw para sa amin.
In time, babalik ang lahat sa dati but for now...let me enjoy the moments with him as us muna. Bilang magkaibigan.
That's what we were before, pure friends. Hindi kami nagsisi sa mga naging desisyon namin at kailanman hindi ko siya aayawan, even if a million Jana comes our way. Kahit ipapatay pa ako ng Tatay ni Pablo.
BINABASA MO ANG
The Alpha's Shining Sun
FanfictionPablo was forced to forget about Stell as he moves away to America and pursue another woman but his feelings for Stell would never change. "Ikaw pa rin pala...ikaw pa rin talaga. Tangina."
