Lovers past and present

Ethan

You were the one I thought I would marry.
You gave me my first kiss.
I know it's pathetic to remember every detail but..... 8:45 pm under the bright moon and pale stars... april 10... in my parents garage.
We were young and desperate. I had chased you for so long without you even knowing it.
My puppy.
My drummer boy.
My everything.
You have a kid now like I do. She's beautiful. I hope she grows up like you. Strong, sincere, passionate, and kindhearted.
You were my first true love. I only realize that now that I know what love actually is.
I don't remember why we split. But I do remember tears threatening to fall from my eyes when you saw me in my homecoming dress where I was waiting on someone else. I wanted to go with you. But there was like an invisible wall between us. Both of us wanting one another yet stopping ourselves.
I would have loved more than anything to still be with you, but we're just close friends now. That's all. I can't think of you as anything else out of fear. Fear that I'll ruin our bond. Fear that I'll intrude on your life. Fear that the same thing will happen again and it will be all for naught.
You've had my heart since day one. You still carry the key, but I have spare keys. So here we will remain.

As close friends.