Lonely Bride

CH-6

"I AM SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS"

That's it

That's it, finally, my world shattered into a million no zillion pieces.

I don't know how to react or what to say. My mind and body have stopped processing. My entire system has shut down.

Nancy held my hand and did something, maybe made me sit somewhere.

I don't know how much time has gone and I am still sitting here.

Again, I felt some movement around but I don't know what was happening. It feels like I am frozen.

I could hear some mummers but nothing was clear and my vision was blurry. Why can't I hear anything or see anything? I guess I need a doctor.

I felt a shake in my body. First, it was slow, and then it was too strong like someone wanted to hurt me. Now I was looking here and there to see where I am and I guess I am at the cemetery.

I saw a coffin in front of me and saw my Granny in it.

Why is granny sleeping here?

And finally, my mind started processing,

She is bidding me her final goodbye.

She is no more with me.

She is leaving me forever.

I officially became an orphan.

I went towards her and opened my bag, took out the gift I got for her and kept it near her.

I felt some snowflakes on her hand and looked up.

It's snowing

I touched her cold hand for the last time,

"Merry Christmas Granny, See, white Christmas as you like," I said with a smile on my face I know how she used to get happy like a kid seeing white Christmas

"I shall see you on another side hopefully soon till then rest in peace and say my Hi to Grandpa and Mama." Leaving her hand, I let her go.

It's late in the evening and I was standing at the same place, looking at the whole cremation process. Everyone started going, I felt a hug, I guess it was Nancy.

She said something but I don't know what. She opened my hand, put something on it and closed it again, and left, I guess.

I look around and find only myself and my Granny.

I sat on my knee and said "so finally you also left and made me officially an orphan han?"

"You were the only family I had and now god has to snatch that too" After saying this I started laughing like a maniac.

"Granny, can you do me a favour? Can you ask God, what sin I have made to get this life?

Why does happiness never knock on my door?

You are the only one I had and that is also gone.

Granny, I also want to come to you, I don't want to live here alone." I look at her tomb.

"I never tell anyone but I get scared alone granny please don't leave me alone like this please granny, please." Finally, tears started flowing from my eyes. I weep in pain. The pain was so strong as if thousands of needles were pricking in my heart.

First Mama left then Grand Pa now you.

Am I that bad?

Why did no one want to be with me?