This chapter is about Morgan just writing her feelings & its just how dhr feels & the story will come together in the next chapters. Enjoy
2 weeks later...
Morgan p.o.v.
Im just here sitting in the corner in the corner of my bedroom.
On the floor writing my feelings away as I just thought about my past.
I think one word to describe it is shitty.
But I am I strong.
Well let me see i've been judged & tormented all my life by the way I look but I still smile.Ive been touched,molested & raped by men & women.Oh & yes I used men & women both due to the fact that it was by both genders & that they were also of age & grown.But even through that I still smile.I got to church but even there im getting judge im not even talking about from the way i sing judgement but from the way i look.Looks go a long ass way i see.And yes im insecure likr a muthafucka but i dont let people know that.I dont just announce that i am.I wamt people to see me as the happiest person they ever met.But its just a game of tug of war but its just 1 against 6.Me against life but we'll see who wins in the long run.Can you guess? Im sure youre right.But in church the judgement isn't needed especially if its about my looks cause last thing i heard & saw was pastor which is your uncle,your brother & your son looking me up and down touching my ass forcefully & calling me baby & beautiful & tryna holla but shit thats none of my business.But I guess im just straight up ugly.But what should i change myself to look like the others & fit in...but shit either way im not changing myself for others likings.Im in love i dont need nobody liking me but him.So If they dont like me as i am all i can say is fuck you.Oh & friends i've learned to never put your trust in them because they will do nothing but break it or worst judge you.
Now all im asking is why me?
Some of the things are normal but why should a person go through that the pain the tears.All that stress on me because you wanted to take advantage of me.
From the age of 7 my attitude increased & I don't even know how to control my temper & just want to fight.
it's obviously a reason for all of that but I'm not just gonna act like it's the only reason.But I do know one thing.
I fight my pain away.
And now the thing to top everything off is that I get beat by my soon the be husband.
What should I do?
I'm scared
I cant fight back nor can my strength even compare to his.
Bruises & cuts all down my body as he hits me & tortures me day & night even time I do something he doesn't like.
I want to leave but I can't he won't let me he threatens me & he says that if he finds me when I leave it will be the last breath I take.He also said if I went to Jacob he'll kill him too along with his mother.
I don't know what to do.
I'm truly terrified of my fiance.
Yes people know heard about me from the news when I went missing but I only told 1 person my story.And I trusted that person enough that they will keep it.
But I will never tell another.
The easier way out & just not get judge upon that is tell no one.
I would rather Suffer in Silence.
A/n:Damn was this a good ass chapter boy i tell ya lmfao.I made this in less than an hour i think i did a good job lol.But i hope you guys liked thanks for reading.
